always and forever - billie eilish

i think you're cute

title: cute - DRAM

billie's POV

still this morning*

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"do you not remember coming out?" finneas asks. "ha psych bitch. of course i remember coming out. that was a big part of my life. how long ago was that anyway? like three, four years?" she asks. "you came out when you were fifteen so yeah, four years" finneas nods. "huh, i swear it hasn't been that long" i laugh a little. "do you still want to see pictures?" claudia asks. "yeah" i nod.

to be honest i'm super nervous to see what she looks like and i don't even know why. i wouldn't care if she was unattractive but for some reason there's that feeling. i don't want her to look all "oh look at me look at me" and shit. and when you look at a picture, or at least when i do, i get a feeling towards it. i think, that person is going to be in my life for a long time or they aren't. there's just some sort of connection there.

"so that's my wife?" i ask after a long time of looking through pictures of all four of us together, utterly shocked. "yep, and i'm sure there's more on your phone." claudia tells me, handing me my phone from the table next to my bed. "there's no fucking way that god damn goddess married me. no fucking way." i shake my head in denial. this girl is gorgeous. a real live angel. i look at my phone and it opens, allowing me to go to my photos and scroll through them.

hopefully one of these will help me remember.

i wonder what we're talking about

it looks like i don't have a shirt on, ha