We Align

Down my throat

Down my throat

I cried myself to sleep last night. My head was throbbing when I woke up. I entered my bathroom and looked in the mirror. I was a wreck. My eyes were puffy, dried tear marks were steaming down my face. When I took a look at my hair, I wanted to cry more.

I went to sleep without braiding it. It was all scrunched up in a kinky mess. It was hard and tangled. My pillows sucked out all the moisture. UGH.

I should just wash it. Two hours later I finally looked better. It was still pretty early, It was only 7:45. I climbed out of my window and sat on my roof. Looking at the sky calmed me, and let me think clearly. I shouldn't be upset, I kept telling myself. Jayden made his choice. What will my move be?

I am not angry, I was just disappointed. I had planned on telling him today that I was 100% for us to be official.

We weren't official that why I am not mad. If he had feelings for Skylar I would've understood if he told me. I figured that I couldn't hold him back forever. It's been years since he supposedly caught feelings. Feelings change all the time. Plus it doesn't help that Skylar is his type.

When I climbed back through my window, it was 8:30. I haven't checked my phone all day. I picked it up and I had 150 unread messages, 30 missed calls and 15 missed video chats . They were all from the same person.

Caleb.

I hoped nothing bad happened. Cay isn't the safest person. He doesn't hang out with the best people either. I scan through the messages. He was talking about my song, checking if I was okay. He said he was going to talk to Jayden. Wait, no. He cannot talk to Jayden. I read a bit further and he 'had a great talk with him.'

Caleb looks at our relationship like we were blood. It is like, you mess with one of us, you mess with all of us. I think that in this case, it is, you hurt me you have to deal with Caleb's fury. his eyes, I'm his little sister but, also his closest friend. Caleb hasn't had an easy childhood. He can either care a whole lot or not one single bit.

I spent my day with a bowl of fruit and my pen along with my notebook. I mostly just stared at a blank page. My thoughts ran wild in my head. They eventually overflowed on my page. It looked like word vomit but I loved writing things, especially songs in my own handwriting. It just feels different. I was at peace. I needed to be away from my phone for a bit.

It was hard because Cartel was down my throat. When I finally replied to his texts he was angrier at the situation than I was. He demanded that we video chat for all the trouble I caused him. I was hesitant because I was always the one who had to force Cay to join my chatroom. What did he have planned? I had to answer, he kept spamming me with calls.

When his screen popped up, he was making out with his girlfriend Sam.

"Hey, Scater break it up!" I tried to say the ship-name seriously. My laughter got the best of me.

At the skate park, Caleb's nickname is Skater. So I just used Sam's S, Caleb's C and his nickname. The couple loves it so no one needs to complain.

"Aden, how you holding up?" Cay asked. Sam was sitting in his lap and he had his arms around her. I was a tad bit jealous. That could've been me and Jayden.

"I'm fine Cartel, stop worrying," I replied.

"M-dog who we fighting?" Sam spoke up.

I laughed, "Sam you are not going to attack my best friend."

Best friend... that's all he will ever be. I'll make sure of it.

"Hey you never know, you ever want me to send something to scare him, just give me his address." She winked and walked out of the room.