Hey, I'm Madison Aden, looks like you found my journal from when I was a kid. Everything in there helped me become who am today, with the contribution of my best friend Jayden Morgan, who was able to let me see life from a new light.
Hear our backs...
I can't say anything wrong if I don't say anything at all.
Haven't you heard the saying, if you're not spoken to, don't speak?
After Jayden's final words to me, I realized how much I hurt him. I don't know what he must have thought when he found Beth in tears. It was my fault. I didn't stop her before it got worse. I was being selfish. Jayden should've known before me.
I made a choice. My choice was silence. I chose not to speak when I wasn't spoken to directly.
I learned a lot from my silence. I learned that my so-called 'friends' treat me as if I was invisible. My teacher caught on to my behaviour. She started asking me questions. I never liked my teacher nor did I trust her. I ignored her questions and shut down her assumptions. My teacher cared, I just didn't want her to.
Not speaking took a toll on my voice. When I would talk my voice would come out raspy. Then my voice began to shut down.
Whispering was the only way I could pronounce full words. If a word had too many syllables my voice would give out. Soon enough two syllables were hard for me.
It was for the best. If I can't talk. I can't say anything wrong. I won't hurt anyone.
When Jayden called me I knew he was testing me. Why would he want to see me? It was a trap. I couldn't be the reason people hurt anymore. I had to shut him down.
Before I would.
I don't do well with emotional pain. Physical pain doesn't phase me one bit.
I figured, my emotions are what will kill me.
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Madison has a lot of underlying issues that needs attention...
