Hey, I'm Madison Aden, looks like you found my journal from when I was a kid. Everything in there helped me become who am today, with the contribution of my best friend Jayden Morgan, who was able to let me see life from a new light.
Hear our backs...
Summer was fading fast. I enjoyed what was left of it.
From my list, I did almost everything. I had my movie day with my friends. I used my bike more. I wrote songs. I didn't pick up a blade. I lived. Clearly...
I was currently at the youth camp, another thing that was on my list. It was great. I really found some peace spiritually.
The last day of camp was August 19th. That day was hard for me. It was the first time in years without him. I had to move on. Me thinking about him wouldn't do me any good. He wouldn't be thinking of me so what was the point.
Well, that's what I thought.
That night. When I returned home. My mom gave me an update of all that was going on. My Godmother gave me a late graduation gift. Then she had to say it... Jayden called the house.
He was looking for me. Why would he... forget about it.
I wasn't going to acknowledge him.
He was making my life toxic. My life should be about me. My life for almost a decade has revolved around Jayden. Things needed to change.
Although there were more calls. More messages. I ignored them.
Soon came the last day of summer. I spent the day with Tj and we finished my list. We had a campfire and made s' mores.
Well, I really thought I finished my list. But it's hard to get over someone in two months. I thought I was good.
Though, I kept getting calls. It made me paranoid. What if something happened to Beth. I had to let it go. I had to let them go.
Too bad Jayden knows how to get my attention.
Somewhere in September, I got a call from an unknown number. I answered it. It was him.
I couldn't talk to him I had school to focus on. He told me if I hung up he would keep calling.
I had to make a decision, have him keep bothering me or let him talk once.
I let him talk.
He said he never meant what he said July first...
I didn't believe him for a moment.
He said that it was the only way to keep me safe.
Huh? Safe from what? He was being forced to stay away from me.
Who in their right mind would care about my relationship with Jayden?
The second I thought the words I knew.
This was so foolish. No one in their right mind would care. But we all know who's not in their right mind.
"You let her take over your life didn't you?" I asked him.
"I never said the sex of this person."
"Don't be stupid. Don't think I'm stupid Jayden. Megan is obsessed with you! And you were stupid enough to believe she could touch me!"
"She's done it before." He whispered.
I mentally rolled my eyes. "Yeah right. Why are you talking to me when she'll flip out?" I laughed.
"I want to be friends again."
No. "We can never be friends," I said.
"I can't stop thinking about you." Forward as always...
"Try harder. Jayden I've wasted a lot of time I need to work."
"Wait! Don't hang up. Let me sing while you work."
As I said, he knew how to get my attention. I let him sing...
It might've been a mistake because I fell for his lyrics.
He wrote a song. And the chorus was stuck in my head. Just like how I was stuck in his.
The song was about us. It was a really good song I won't lie.
It was so good that I made my own version of the song.
The song was called on my mind.
Jayden's hook describes his favourite feature about me, which are my eyes.
My eyes are broken but they say the words I can't say verbally.
She looks at you with those broken eyes, you turn around and your heart flies because she's the girl that's always on my mind.
It was stuck in my head for so long.
Then I made my version. His song was about our relationship from his point of view. So I made my song about our relationship from my point of view.
It started September 19, 2008
The first day he arrived at school
He was a jerk
He was prude
But I didn't know what to do
And He even stole my best friends heart too
I was upset over it like why did she always talk about him
but I didn't really get it what's so special about him
One day she decided to tell me why she had feelings for the jerk I despised
And this is what She said
"He looks at you with those ocean eyes you turn around and your heart flies cause he's the boy that's always on my mind"
That was it it was his eyes she had no true feelings for him inside
Anyways he elected to be in my crew
This guy had brainwashed all my friends to the ......very very end
And well I guess I was too
He is smart
he is kind
He is the type of guy that I can't get off my mind
Then I stopped there. Was I insane! Why was I falling for his tricks? I almost fell but I won't again...
TWO MONTHS LATER
I fell. I forgave him...
We were petty much back to how we were before July first.
Although, he was still with Megan.
Jayden and I agreed that Meg should get more attention since she was his girlfriend.
I was fine with it.
Megan stopped threatening me. But she changed. She changed too quickly.
Something bad was coming. I could sense it.
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