Hey, I'm Madison Aden, looks like you found my journal from when I was a kid. Everything in there helped me become who am today, with the contribution of my best friend Jayden Morgan, who was able to let me see life from a new light.
Hear our backs...
Final words That one document... had over 50 pages. Marq was always well spoken. He would write (type) his words before he said them. I guess it was like a journal in some type of way. But this one was only for talking with me. It took me hours to read it all. I knew about every single page.
Except the last one.
...how do I trust again when my longest friendship was a lie
Marq always types in caps. At least I knew this was him.
He called me M.
He called Jayden, Will.
He called James by the proper version of his nickname Xav.
M, I KNOW YOU CAN SEE THE TENSION BETWEEN US GUYS. HONESTLY ITS WILLS FAULT, HE ALWAYS TEASED XAV ABOUT YOU, EVEN IF I TRIED TO STOP IT HE'D SAY I LIKE YOU, WHICH YOU KNOW, SO I SAY THAT WILL TEASES YOU BECAUSE HE LIKES YOU BUT DIDN'T WANT TO ADMIT ANYTHING. THE TRUTH IS AFTER WILL'S STUNT AT SCHOOL HIM AND XAV STOPPED TALKING AND ONLY TALKED WHEN AROUND YOU. NOT LONG AFTER WILL TOLD XAV AND HE TICKED. HE STARTED TO THINK MORE AND MORE LIKE HIS FATHER. THAT'S WHY WE TRIED KEEPING HIM AWAY FROM YOU. WILL DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH HIS FEELINGS SO HE HID THEM IN MUSIC. WHILE I TOLD YOU HOW I FELT. ME AND WILL BOTH KNEW OUR FEELINGS WERE WRONG SINCE WE BOTH KNEW XAV LIKES YOU FIRST. IF YOU HAVENT REALIZED THE FEELING IS QUITE UNCONTROLABLE. THE POINT IS I KNOW YOU LIKE ME, BUT YOU CAN'T, EVEN IF I FEEL THE SAME WAY. WILL DESERVES YOU AND WILL KEEP YOU SAFE. OR THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT. I SEE THE LOOK IN HIS EYES WHEN HE LOOKS AT YOU. ITS OVERPROTECTIVE HE SHOWS THAT IN HIS ACTIONS, ANY SCRAPE OR FALL HES THE FIST TO TELL EVERYONE TO GET AWAY SO HE CAN LOOK AND "ANALYZE THE SITUATION". WILL, WILL NOT STOP TILL HE HAS WHAT HE CANT. YOU ARE A CHALLENGE FOR HIM BECAUSE YOU'VE NEVER SEEN HIM AS ANYTHING OTHER THAN A FRIEND. I CAN TELL YOU TRUTHFULLY THAT JAYDEN SHOULDN'T EVEN BE YOUR FRIEND AS HES ACTS LIKE HE KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, LIKE YOU TELL HIM EVERYTHING, LIKE YOU GUYS ARE A MARRIED COUPLE OR SOMETHING. BY THE WAY THE FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN US GUYS GO, WE'LL DRIT APART. XAV IS ALREADY ON THE VERGE OF LEAVING. ITS LIKE WILL CANT IMAGINE YOU BEING WITH ANYONE OTHER THAN HIM. IF WE COMLIMENT YOU IT JUST FEEDS HIM. HES JEALOUS, BUT I KNOW HES SCARED, MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE, OF LOSING YOU. M, I HOPE I CAN BE AS TRUTHFULL WHEN I TELL YOU THIS AS I WRITE. JULY 10 10/11 -MARQ
That date...
Marq always wrote two years when he wrote.
He passed in 2011.
July 13, 2011
Marq either meant to tell me a year and three days. Or three days before he passed.
Marq writing doesn't surprise me. He was always very well-spoken. Even though these are his 10-year-old (I wish he made it to 11)thoughts I believed them.
Jayden has been crazy. I did realize in the past how distant James used to be. I think I finally understood what James meant when I was in the park with him. He told me then "it's not me."
He knew I would somehow be closer to Jayden.
That's the thing. Jayden only got me because I fell for his words. He's a sweet talker and I let him get the best of me.
I know it's time for this to be over. It actually had to end.
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