We Align

I don't want it.

I don't want it.

Jayden's POV

She left my room over an hour ago. I have been staring at the three books in front of me for over an hour.

I know for a fact that I do not want to go anywhere near her journal. I do not want to know what she thinks about in that depth.

Madison is scary descriptive sometimes.

The dream journal catches my interest but not really because I know that she'd write in the view of her nightmares.

That left the songbook. Madison's songs are either straight to the point or very subtle.

I grab the songbook. The last song I know Mads wrote was We Align. That was years ago.

I flip through multiple pages until I got to a page called THE JXM SONGS.

That's me.

The first song was Stay. She wrote that about the Skylar situation. It makes me cringe, thinking about what I did.

After that is We Align...

Then something titled; Don't forget about me. I read it.

She was indecisive about her decision to let me go, but she does believe it was the correct choice.

The next song makes me laugh. I made a song about Madison because she would constantly be on my mind. She made her own version of my song. Though, she didn't finish it. I still cannot believe back then, when I was doing everything to get Madison's attention that Emily was trying to get mine.

There were multiple other songs but the one that caught my attention the most was titled; Unspoken words/Firebird.

She was indecisive about the title. Madison only calls me firebird when I have done something related to football. The unspoken words part makes me wonder what went unspoken. She wrote this on a keyboard. I trail to the basement and settle myself on the keyboard.

Unspoken words/ Firebird.

You always have the right words to say

But also the wrong ones when your heart plays

I pull the strings to your heart it's true

But its nothing compared to what you do

I think about you all day and night

I know its wrong but it feels so right

We haven't talked in quite some time

It's all my fault because you aren't mine

You gave me a chance but I pushed you away

You know what you want but my heart doesn't play

It's locked in a safe with two chains and a key

I know it's hard, you kept fighting for me

I don't want to hurt you I can't let you go

I needed my best friend more than anybody knows

My unspoken words are real its true

You told me you love me and it scared me too

I couldn't say it back because my flaws are real

You are too good but I couldn't make that deal

You had my name etched on your heart