We Align

Promises

Promises

I couldn't sleep at all this past week. Jayden stays up with me and it makes me feel awful so I'd tell him I'm going to bed and sit in the darkness of my room. Whenever he would question my reasons for not being able to sleep, I would tell him I just can't find myself to rest and relax.

The real reason is that I am going to my parents' house. I haven't been there in five years. I've been on calls with my parents, it isn't anything more than a simple hello or happy birthday or something.

I don't really have a presence on social media. I post once a year on Instagram. So my parents and siblings don't know what's going on.

I've never really felt close to them growing up. I felt like I could never talk with them... especially through my dark phases.

I am kinda scared to go over there. My siblings, their husbands and kids will be there. As far as I know, they believe I am single. And I'm not sure if I want them to meet Jayden on this occasion.

It's currently ten in the morning and I am almost certain I heard Jay leave for work earlier. I get dressed and ready for the day and I head downstairs to make a quick breakfast.

I yawn and open my fridge to grab an egg.

"Where are you going?"

I scream and toss the egg into the air. I turn around focusing on slowing my heart rate. I see Jayden holding the egg. "Was that necessary?" I ask him.

"I think you tossed this." He hands me the egg.

I give him a look that says NO DUH!

"I thought I heard you leave this morning?" I get out a frying pan.

"I opened and closed the front door. I took the day off. You haven't been sleeping. You've been lying to me by telling me you are sleeping. Unless you sing in your sleep then I'll let it slide?"

You've got to be kidding me, "the walkie talkie?" I sigh and he nods.

"You are wearing clothes other than athletics, where are you going, Madison?"

I place bread in the toaster and turn to face him. I let out a shaky breath, "I'm going to my parents' house."

He tilts his head to the side squinting at me, "Is that a bad thing? You look nervous."

"I haven't seen my parents or my siblings in about four-five years. And we are all going to be there. As well as my sisters' husbands and kids." I begin plating my breakfast. Toast, eggs and water.

His eyes light up and I know what he's going to ask. "Can I come?"

I cannot help but look anywhere but at him. It's not that I don't want him there. I just... I don't know.

"Why don't you want me to come?" He asks, in response to my silence.

"I do, I just don't think it is the right time..." I say very slowly, eating my food.

Jayden stands right in front of me and says, "There's something more. What is it?"

I honestly don't know what to say and I know that there's is a dwindling two percent chance of me leaving this house alone this morning.

I give in, "Nothing. If you wanna come go get dressed." I don't have the energy to argue.

He smiles, tilts my chin up and lightly presses his lips against mine before dashing to his room.

Oh, God... What have I gotten myself into?

Surprisingly Jayden let me drive. And about fifteen minutes later we make it to the place where we have had oh so many memories.