Mommy at Eighteen (COMPLETED)

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Mommy at Eighteen
By: Jlessbiiiiim

Nakapangalumbaba ako habang binabasa ang libro namin sa Anatomy. I've been reading this book for like ages but I understand nothing. Walang pumapasok sa isip ko, wala akong natutunan sa pagbabasa ko ngayon.

It's 12 noon. Huli kong naalala ay nasa classroom ako dahil may klase kami. Pumikit lang ako pagdilat ko nasa library na pala ako.

Seriously, lutang ako kanina pang umaga paggising ko. I can't even remember what date is today, if it is weekdays. My whole body is working with the absence of my mind. 'Di ba, minsan naman may panahon na paggising natin parang naaalimpongatan tayo kaya nakakalimutan natin kung anong araw ngayon. I've experienced it too, pero this time iba. Parang may kulang. Parang may nakasanayan ako tapos bigla na lang nagbago? I'm missing someone's presence.

"Yohoy! Earth to Sheena. Sheena to Earth."

Someone stole my attention when I saw a hand waving in front of me. I looked at her with a blank face.

"Are you okay? Kanina pa kita kinakausap but you seem problematic," she asked, worry is written on her face.

"I'm not problematic. Just... not in the mood." I shrugged my shoulder.

Sinara ko ang binabasa kong libro at dumapa sa table. I saw Alice sat beside me.

"Alam mo, Sheen, hindi ka madalas ganiyan. Madalas ka naiirita sa boses ko, oo. Pero 'yong wala ka sa mood, mabibilang sa daliri ng kaliwang kamay ko kung ilang beses lang kitang nakita na wala sa mood," sabi niya. "Anong problema?" She sounded concern.

Umayos ako ng upo. Pero bakit parang bumigat lalo ang pakiramdam ko dahil sa mga sinabi niya.

Siguro hindi lang ako sanay na marinig siya na ganoon ang pinagsasabi, seryoso.

With a tired face, I looked at her. "Dumaldal ka na lang," I told her, sounding like I'm suggesting a good thing to do. "You being serious is giving me goosebumps." I then left her  inside the library.

Pumasok sa isip ko kung anong oras na ba. Instead of checking the time on my wrist watch, cellphone ko ang kinuha ko at in-open. And I was disappointed sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. Pakiramdam ko tinusok ang puso ko. It seems like I am expecting something. At 'yong ine-expect ko ay wala, kaya parang disappointed ako at the same time, parang tinutusok ang puso ko, nakakawala ng gana. Parang gusto ko ng umuwi, humiga at matulog. Pakiramdam ko napapagod ako gayong wala naman akong ginagawa.

I took a really deep breath.

I have a meeting today at 1 pm with the dean and the school staffs. This is the first time na kasama ako sa meeting ng mga school staffs, kaya medyo kinakabahan ako.

Soon as I enter the conference room, the dean started the meeting. Of course, they acknowledge my presence as the new owner of the school.

It was a bit awkward because I am younger compare to them and most of all, I am a student still but got to be respected with professional teachers, some of them are doctors in education.

Diniscuss ng Dean ang tungkol sa plano nila na magkaroon ng party para e-celebrate ang panibagong simula ng University under my ownership. They need my approval.

"I think we don't need to change the year established. Kasi pangalan lang naman ng school at ang may-ari ang nabago. Pero the traditions, the school uniform, the rules and regulations and etcetera, tingin ko hindi na kailangan pang palitan. Kasi most of the students na nag-aaral dito are old students. At isa pa, isang taon na akong nag-aaral sa school na 'to bago pa man e-declare ng Kuya ko na ako na ang bagong may-ari ng school. I'm just saying na may mga bagay na nakasanayan ang mga students na hindi na dapat pang palitan. I don't mind if the school will continue kung ano man ang nakasanayan nito." I explained.