INSIDE THEIR MINDS

Decision

Phil

Her hand feels silky smooth as she holds mine tightly. I am again introduced to her room this time with her being consious.

Before we were even through the doorway she was kissing me, her hands wandering everywhere then finding their resting place behind my head her fingers running through my hair.

I kiss her back but a thought runs through my mind momentarily causing me to stop all of my pleasurable actions.

I pull away and look at her. Her clothes, her again roudy hairstyle, her smile all told me to give in to my desires but it was that other horrible yet rational thought that brought me back.

"Kate, I need to talk to you." I say to her grabbing both of her hands taking them off of my body.

"Can't it wait?" She whines.

"No sorry, it can't."

I take a seat on the edge of the bed and pat the blanket beside me, inviting her to sit as well.

"I invited you to dinner to discuss some things. I wanted to see what you truly wanted. You just seem to have some mixed emotions and I never would want to hurt you or take advantage."

"I'm sorry... about everything. I know my behavior has been less than ideal. I never have done this and though I like you this, us, can't go anywhere. It isn't exactly my dream relationship to be the third wheel, and had it been anyone else it never would have gotten this far."

She speaks at the floor her chin into her chest.

"I guess the better question is what do you want Phil? Do you want a relationship with me or do you..." She cuts off.

"Do I want to stay with my wife..." I finish. "I want you. I truly do want you. Just give me a week to sort through everything, ok sweetie?"

Kate

I look into his sad eyes not knowing what to say next. The pancakes, our time in the elevator, his amazing personality all pulled me to him. He was the man of my dreams, literally. A few years back when he was first starting out, and single, I had had some more than pg dreams about him. So for it all to be happening now it was hard for me to just push him away, like I should have done from the very beginning.

"Can I say one more thing before you leave?" I say as he stands from the bed.

"Anything." He says with a smile.

"When you think about what you want to do I want you to make the decision that will make you the most happy."

"I will." He says walking right out the doorway of my bedroom.

It was a few seconds later that I heard the front door shut and it was then that the whirlwind of emotions came rushing back to me.

The need, the want, the passion, the sex.. Phil.. Phil..

As I lay back in bed he was all I could think about.