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Avery

"Hey! I haven't seen you since last night. Everything okay?" Rebekah closes the door behind her, walking over and taking a seat on the bed beside me. "I'm fine. I just went to bed after dinner." Please don't call me a liar. Please don't call me a liar.

"Well, I just wanted to check on you. Abbie's been in a mood, so I gave her and Derek a night off. Hopefully she'll be in a better one soon." She winks, nudging my arm.

Even if Abbie had sex last night, I doubt her good mood would last when she sees me at breakfast. I thought about skipping, but Elijah is a stickler for family meals, there's no way he'd let me miss it.

"Yeah, maybe." I push up off the bed, feeling the pressure build behind my eyes and the ball of nerves in my stomach tighten. I don't like not knowing what I'm walking into out there. Did she expect me to leave last night? Will she expect me to after breakfast? Do I say goodbye to her?

"Are you sure you're okay? I know Abbie said some things last night, but I'm sure she didn't mean them." She meant every single word. What makes it all that much worse, is that she was saying it for herself too. It wasn't just for my benefit, but it's like she had to remind herself of who they were and what they were capable of.

"I'm fine, Bex. I just need a minute to get ready for breakfast." I see the hesitant look, but she doesn't argue. Once she's gone, I allow myself a second to just break. It feels like I've been fighting for so long, that I just can't do it anymore.

Between leaving Klaus after 500 years. Then there's being mentally exhausted from Rafe and him wanting more. Abbie's a completely different person and I think that's what hurts the most. It feels like I've completely lost my best friend and she doesn't even seem to care.

If it hurts so bad and she isn't going to change, then why are you staying? Why do you let it hurt, when she doesn't seem the least bit concerned about how you feel? Why are you forcing this, when you can give her exactly what she wants and what you deserve?

That's the exact pep talk I give myself as I walk downstairs, going into the kitchen. I come to a stop when I see the countertops bare and no food in sight.

"Elijah said we're on our own this morning." Hayley informs me, grabbing her bag and Hope. "Him and Klaus went somewhere, Rebekah just left with Kol to go get breakfast and Derek is with Freya. I think they went to the street market around the corner." She spouts off, readjusting Hope on her hip, leaving the room.

I follow, that ball of nerves wound so tight it might explode. "And where are you going? Where's Abbie and Haidyn?!" She spins around to look at me, her eyes narrowing slightly, before she points to the bassinet beside the chair in the courtyard.

"I just put her down for a nap. She's been fed and changed, so she should be good until Abbie gets up. Are you okay being left alone with her?" I nod, but my mind is still focused on one thing.

"So it's just me and Abbie here?" She nods, looking up at Abbie's room, before me again. "Yeah. If it helps, Derek said he should be back before she gets up. I left his number on the counter if you need it." She steps closer, putting her hand on my arm.

"If you need me, just call. We're going out to the bayou for a bit, but I can come back." I nod, feeling my chest constrict as she walks away.

If Abbie wakes up and it's just me here, she'll lose it. She's made it abundantly clear that I'm not wanted and if I don't leave, she will. No matter how bad I want to be a part of her life, I can't force her to give up her family. That would kill her.

I look down at the sleeping little girl in the basket and a warming sensation fills my chest. Abbie had a baby. My best friend had a baby, but I'll never get to be a part of her life. Not after today.