The Perfect Mikaelson's

140|| Derek 🐺

Derek

It's been a week since I found out Abbie is in love with Damon and apparently everyone else knew. Even Stefan knew and didn't say anything to me. I thought we were becoming great friends, but clearly he's only looking out for his brother.

I've read every single book Avery gave me and even had Stefan find me some more. It seemed kinda stupid at first, but I get why Avery made me do it. Not only do I see how this could work, but I think it's the only option I have without tearing our family apart. I just hope it's not going to backfire.

I got the idea about five books in, but I couldn't stop there. Even after I finished Avery's stack and started Stefan's, I knew I was fucked. I hate to admit it, but they're good. Not just the Why-choose either. All of them. Mafia. Reverse Harem. Stalker. Bully. Secret Society. Enemies to Lovers. I've read two shelves but it hasn't even scratched the surface of her library.

According to Stefan, she's read most, but not all of them. I've noticed her reading more lately and I've been reading the books she's read recently. I'm not sure if it's just what she chose or if it's what she's wanting. Either way, I feel like I'm starting to understand her. I probably shouldn't be looking too much into what she reads because it's just an escape, but what if there is some truth in them? Like the Why-Choose.

I'm going crazy sitting here wondering about the what-ifs and not talking to them about this. I decided last night I was done avoiding it and bringing it up when I saw them. Only thing is, they've been avoiding me all day. I tried not overthinking it, but part of me thinks it's because something has already happened.

Striding into the living room, I find Stefan reading one of her damn books. I swear they have a little book club and I'm considering joining. Clearly I've been roped into this and might as well have someone to talk to about it.

"Have you seen Abbie or Damon?" He looks up at me, his eyes flickering to the back deck. I nod, heading right for the door wanting to get this over with. "Uh.. you might.." He trails off, his lips pressed together when I spin around.

Knowing what I know, I'm sure he was about to warn me of something I might not want to see, but it was too late. He told me where they were and saying anything else would've been obvious.

Returning to my task, I stride right out the doors, stopping when I see Damon in the corner of the porch, his back to me. When he shifts, her hand comes up, tangling in his hair. Something ugly stirs inside of me, but I shove it down to do what needs to be done.

Clearing my throat, she shoves him away, sending him back into the table and chairs. Her eyes are trained on her feet, as he glares at her.

"I wanted to talk to both of you." Neither of them say anything, or even acknowledge me. A part of me wants to storm over there and force her to look at me, or drive my fist into his face. They don't know that I know and I just caught them red handed. She promised to tell me, and yet again, she's broken that promise.

Letting go of my own issues, I focus on this. I can bring it up to Abbie later. "It's taken me a while to see it, but clearly whatever is going on between you two isn't going away." Abbie slowly looks up at me, her eyes pleading with me. "I'm sorry, Der-.."

"Just stop, Abs. I'm not getting into that right now, but just for the record, that doesn't mean shit anymore when I just caught you kissing him.. again."

Her whole body tenses, but I ignore it and turn to Damon. "You want to be with her, consider this my blessing." His head snaps up to me, Abbie stepping closer. "Derek, I promise it's not what.."

"It's not what, Abbie? It's not what I think? Because I think you're in love with him but deny it every time someone mentions it." Abbie flinches and Damon grunts, standing up from the table.

He turns to face me, crossing his arms over his chest. I do the same, ready for whatever bullshit he's going to feed me. "So what are you saying?"

"I'm saying, if you want a chance with her, then take it. I'm done fighting it and standing in the way."

"I swear it'll never happen again. Don't do this, Derek." My heart aches when her voice cracks, pleading with me. I hate the look she gives me and how it makes me want to comfort her. I'll gladly give her that, but I need to say this and then take some time for myself. This isn't easy for me and I definitely don't know what I'm doing despite reading an entire genre on it.

"I'm not going anywhere, but you can do whatever you need to get answers and see if what yall have is what y'all really want. If it is, we can come back to it and figure out what to do from there. So, until then, don't worry about doing this sad attempt to hide it and just do whatever. Nothing will change where the kids are concerned, but I'd appreciate it if you didn't flaunt it in front of them until we figure it out."

I spin on my heels, ignoring Abbie calling after me and the crack slowly forming in my heart. I know what I just said, but the unknown of what will happen if they do really love each other and decide to be together.. yeah, that hurts like a bitch.

Honestly, I'm not even sure if I can hope they don't workout. If they don't, it should stop the sneaking around and heated looks. But if they do.. then this could ruin everything. I'll have to decide whether or not I can handle sharing her with him or how this would even work. Do we get certain days or do we just wing it?

Then there's the kids. How would we explain that to them? Would they end up hating us? Would it cause problems with their friends and their parents? Would people judge? How do we explain this to our families? Hell, if we tell Abbie's we don't have to worry about it. Damon and I would both be dead.

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