𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝙵𝙴𝙴𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽 [𝙴𝙽- 𝚁𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙴 𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙴𝙼]

Chapter 135

Music themes
1. Ocean eyes - Billie Ellish
2. Round and round - Heize

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(Ocean eyes - Billie Ellish)

The question made me jump and look at the door with wide eyes. How did he know? Did he really have telepathy? Was he Heli in real life? I looked back and forth between the door and the paper in my hand. And then another one slid in.

I did. Many times.

My lips parted as I read the words. Did Jake want to run away? But why? Didn't he have the perfect life as an idol? He had never been into scandals, always left the fans speechless with his ever-growing skills, and always seemed to bounce around like an excited puppy.

I looked at the desk where the pencil was. I was about to get on the chair to retrieve it. But a pen rolled in as well. I wrote it down on the empty place and sent it out.

Y

The response was fast. As if he knew that I was going to ask this.

Because I did not like how things were. I had pressure in school to the top. I had no dream of my own except my father's wish of taking up the business. Then they didn't let me pursue idolship either. Only after I promised to return within a year if things didn't go well. A year's time for training, which you must know, is absurd.

Even when I trained in Hybe, completely clueless. In Iland, when I couldn't score well. And was far behind than my peers. The time during the debut, when I thought I wasn't good enough as my members, basically most of the time.

As I read it over, I realized that not all perfect-looking lives are actually perfect. And Jake had gone through similar struggles as any person would. The stakes and goal might be different, but in the end, no one is spared from despair.

Im sry Jake

I pressed the pen a little harder than I meant to. There was nothing else that I could say. Not like this at least. The scribbling continued from outside. I pictured him sitting on the floor. Maybe bent down, his tongue sticking out slightly in concentration as he wrote. And soon the paper slipped in.

My point is that, just because you want to run away, doesn't mean it's for the best. You get the best by staying and fighting for it.

I exhaled loudly. And I wrote exactly what I thought about it.

Nt whn u endngr ppl

There was a small pause outside before the scribbling started and the paper immediately slid in.

So you were thinking about running away as well.

And within a few seconds another one came in.

And I came at the right time, didn't I?

I sighed. Did I worry him with my response? But he wasn't done yet. Another paper slid in, and this time it was longer.

Whenever you feel that way, remember to push through to get to your best.

Can I ask you this? Did you ever feel this way because of us? Considered running away from us?

My breath caught in my throat. Should I lie and say I didn't? Because I most definitely did. After thinking about it for a little while, I decided to tell the truth. My heart told me that Jake wasn't going to flip out. And I wanted to believe that whatever we talked about was going to stay between us.

Yes. Pics - not pefrmng.

I stopped myself from mentioning the mafia. I wasn't sure if this topic should be brought up when I was locked in here. The sound of paper scraping against the floor caught my attention again.