ᴛʜᴀᴛ ꜰᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ᴡʜᴇɴ [ᴇɴ- ᴘᴏʟʏ]

Chapter 78

In no time, I reached my home. It felt weird that I hadn't come home for more than a week. I was greeted with my sanctuary which was collecting a lot of dust. My mother might as well disown me if she sees the house right now.

I went to change into my usual T-shirts and shorts. And I paled at my own reflection. From Handprints on my thighs and hips to the purple and red hues on my whole upper body.

It's a beautiful painting.

No, Niki. It looks like a crime scene to me.

I burst out into laughter at my own thoughts. This was way too much than I expected it to be. I threw my shorts back in and changed into trousers and a T-shirt. But the thing was, I could still see Sunghoon's first bite mark from the skating rink. I frowned at it. It hadn't faded as much as I thought it would. Another problem.

Sitting down on the bed, I started googling stuff. And the results made my eyes widen. Do they last for 2 days to 3 weeks?! Are you fucking serious? I grimaced and looked into the mirror again. If my parents were to return in 2 weeks, there was no way my neck would look clean. I lifted my hair in my usual ponytail and immediately put it down. Even my upper neck. I cursed loudly at myself for getting carried away too much. I was angry and decided to take it out on the only person I could at the moment.

Me
LEE HEESEUNG MY BODY LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING CRIME SCENE YOU ASSHOLE.

I immediately felt better. But that didn't change the fact that I was still in trouble. A deep one at that. I fell back onto the bed and stared at the ceiling. Marks could be dealt with later. The more pressing matter at hand was a possible pregnancy. And I'd rather commit suicide than be pregnant. I opened my phone and started googling again.

What if you forget|

No wait. I erased it and opened incognito. You can never be too safe. I hit my head at the thought. If I had thought of this earlier I wouldn't have had to Google this. I shook my head and started looking for answers.

Emergency Contraceptive.

Great. This would do. I squinted my eyes at the website below. What the fuck? They were selling ECs on grocery websites? I thought about it. Will someone know if I ordered them now? Grocery delivery is pretty normal. And I can use my spam mail to register. But my only concern was, will it be effective? This is a fucking 10-minute delivery website for food and other necessities and you're telling me it delivers those medicines at home? Not to mention I cannot take any risk with this. Wouldn't it be better if I just go the pharmacy? Yeah, that's more like it.

I got up from the bed to get ready. But I realized that I didn't know when I would be back home again. So I first resorted to cleaning the house. I put my headphones in and got to work.

In the midst of cleaning, my mind drifted off to last night again. Sanu asked me to push them away and I ended up sleeping with one of them. I should probably thank her for being the catalyst here. Even though we made a blunder while at it, I regretted nothing.

I only wanted some time away to come to terms with it. When I looked at myself in the mirror this morning, I did not feel any shame. I did not feel guilty of anything. I had surrendered to Heeseung last night. And I would do it for any or every one of them. However bad that looked. Because I loved them.
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I fiddled with my scarf nervously as I stood outside the pharmacy. This place was alien to me, 20 Kms away from my house. The farther, the better. The way I had wrapped the scarf on my face, made me feel like a bank robber.

I took a deep breath and walked in. The store was fairly empty. And I didn't know if that was a good thing. It was a huge store, so there were three people at the front. Thankfully there was a lady as well. I approached her.