Beintehaa Ishq

Arzoo

Chapter 18

Arzoo

As they reached home...she asked kashif to help him..Zain refused ...agar madad nahi karni toh meri lakdi hai...mai sirf lakdi ya ladki ke saath chahta hu ...he was laughing ...

As he walked back..he turned around ..Da ...khana kha lena ...

She looked away ...she had to do something ...fast ..her head was still dizzy ...hungry ...unbearable one...

She stepped in the kitchen to fix up lunch ...and sent him his food ...

As Zain walked towards her room ...limping ...he knocked softly ...

Aao jao ...she couldn't bear to see how he had dragged himself out of his bed ...

Da...tumne raat ki davai nahi li na ..yeh lo ...she could never know how he managed to read her thoughts so well

Rakh do ...

...Da ...basket car mai hi bhool gayi thi tum ..yeh bhi lo ...

She took it and kept it aside ...almost dumping it on the side ...she saw his expressions from the corner of her eye ...his face fell..and then again he looked up to smile

Da...pata hai jungle mai keede bhi hote hai ..mai toh itna brave tha ...kai keedo koh maara maine ...he was talking alone and laughing which made Aaliya think...he has lost it ...

Da ...who mere pair mai bahut dard ho raha hai ..painkiller hai kya tumhare paas ...She looked blank...

woh Chachu abhi taka aye nahi hai na clinic se varna unse maangata ...

Waha ...drawer mai hai le lo...

Aree kabhi toh apni tashreef uthakar ek kamzor aadmi ki maddad kar diya karo...

Kisne kaha tha ...kuda kudi karne koh ...

He shook his head ....nahi sudhrogi, daya maya naam ki ek cheez har ek insaan mai honi chaiye ..khuda tume dalna bhool gaya hoga ...

He walked painfully to reach her drawer ...and saw the bottle of sleeping pills ...a harsh reality peeked in through that medication bottle...her pain her angst ...her frustration

jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke

jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke

lagta nahi dil kahin bin aapke

jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke

he silently took his medicines and started to leave ...his heart wanting to forget what he just saw ...his pain mingling with his emotional distress now...

he turned back to see her face ...the pain on it never went away ...no matter what all he tried ...her face showed she didn't like his presence ...it hurt her to see him...he had become a eye sore ...as in her words a punishment for her ...but he just couldnt separate from her ...he didn't have the courage

kaise kahu bina tere jindagi ye kya hogi

kaise kahu bina tere jindagi ye kya hogi

jaise koi saza koi bad-dua hogi

jaise koi saza koi bad-dua hogi

meine kiya hai yeh faisla

jeena nahi hai tere bina

jiye to jiye kaise bin aapke

He didn't have the courage to see her anymore...being guilty was one thing ...feeling remorseful was another ...with heavy legs he started walking out ...