Swan of Endless Feathers (Book 1 of Swan Trilogy)

Chapter 62

Chapter 62

R M A

Charlotte

"Sayaw?" Riley asked, gently.

Tumango ako na nakangiti. "Sayaw."

Riley held my hand while walking to the center of the dance floor. Namumula ang pisngi niya. Maamo talaga ang hitsura niya na mala-anghel.

"M-May sinagot ka na ba sa mga kapatid ko?"

Ang unang pumasok sa isip ko si Tyler pero sa katunayan ay wala pa talaga akong nasasagot sa kanila. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya ang sumulpot sa isip ko.

"Ahh. 'Di ko pa kasi muna iniisip 'yong ganon bagay. I just really want to focus on ice skating." Pag-amin ko.

I went to school to learn, not to landi.

"Uhm... may tsansa ba ko sa'yo?"

Napatingin ako sa mata niya. Nagtama ang amin tingin na nagpamula ng amin mukha.

"Ah! N-Nevermind!" Napakagat siya sa ibaba niyang labi.

"May problema ba, Riley?"

"Hinahanda ko ang sarili ko na maging boyfriend mo o mareject sa'yo."

Nanlumo ako sa narinig ko. Whenever I hear the word 'reject', nasasaktan ako na kailangan kong gawin ito dahil lang nagkagusto sila sa akin.

I could only love one man in my life.

"Ganon ba?"

"Maybe you should think about yourself first bago ang mga ganitong bagay. Ni hindi ko na nga masyado iniisip kaya dapat 'di mo muna pinag-aabalahan ito."

I've been avoiding thinking about this situation. Sumasakit ang ulo ko kapag iniisip ko ito, kung sino ba dapat ang nararapat para sa akin pero nadadala rin ako ng guilt ko.

"You look a bit guilty." Sambit niya. "Sariling desisyon namin na ligawan ka. It's not like you're forcing us."

"It's not fair to any of you." Malumanay kong sagot.

"It is fair." Tutol niya. "Mabuti pa na hindi ka gumagawa ng desisyon basta-basta. You take the time to think things through."

"Which makes me what?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. "Indecisive, right?"

"Which makes you a good person." Riley smiled. "You want to find a choice where none of us will get hurt. But there's no such thing, right?"

Hindi ako nakaimik sa sinabi niya. Riley may be gentle at times but he can see right through me like he had felt this before, the guilt of hurting someone for the sake of love.

He's right. I don't want to rush my decision. Ayoko naman pagsabay-sabayin sila at mas lalo nang ayokong saktan silang lahat.

Hindi ako swerteng babae sa mundo. Nakasalalay sa kamay ko ang puso nila, kung masasaktan ba ito o hindi.

Some guys or girls would go their way, breaking hearts like it's nothing, just having fun with other people's feelings.

But that's not me.

"What makes me happier is seeing you happy with someone else. Not any medicine will cure the heartache, but to let you go for choosing your love that is worthy for you." Riley whispered.

My nose started to clog because I was crying too hard. Riley just kept smiling at me and staring at me like despite I look like a mess right now, he still looks at me like I'm the prettiest girl he had ever seen.