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Harry Kirton x Reader
He's gone. I don't know how I could live without him. I hadn't been out of my room in days. The loneliness is laying on me like a blanket.
I didn't expect it.
I knew it was going to happen but I didn't expect it to happen so quickly.
My friends have been constantly messaging me asking me if I would go out.
I think I was on the verge of getting rickets, I just didn't want to see the sun ever again, since the one person who lit up my world was gone.
Is there even a sun out there anymore?
I guess I really should get out of my emotional pit I call a room. I walked out into my living room, it was a lot cleaner than I thought.
My friends must have cleaned it up when they came round for a sleepover last week. I looked up to one of my plain walls to see a hanging picture that wasn't there before.
It was one of me and Harry, before he passed. I silently ignored it not wanting to confront my bleeding heart.
I opened my fridge to see that it was empty, I must have eaten the last bit of food last night that I kept in my room.
I need to go shopping. I looked towards the clock and it said 3:20 pm, it wasn't too late. I stumbled back into my messy room and finally opened my curtains and was blinded by the blasting sun that was finally let through.
I opened my wardrobe and finally changed into something new. It had been a full day since I had last changed into something new.
I put on my shoes and left. Listening to some new music I downloaded. I couldn't listen to anything else, it would just remind me of the emotional torture that my heart reminds me of.
I walked through the streets of London on my way to a shop in the area.
It was a pretty day today, the sun was shining and flowers were blooming. People smiled at me, some people didn't.
I didn't have the thought to judge, I just carried on walking along to the continuous beat of the songs playing.
I finally got to the shop and went through to get my shopping. I brought some other things as well, that I thought I needed.
On my way home, I decided to go to the park, I might as well, just to soak up the sun. It was getting darker and the sky was turning orange and pink.
It took me a while in the shop, because Harry usually went with me, but this time it was just me.
I sat on one of the wooden benches and watched as people walked past, children and adults. I smiled at their happiness, but secretly envied it.
I wanted to have that happiness again, it may take me awhile. I'm just going to have to learn how to be happy without him.
