Thinner

25

Daydream.
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"Hey Yang! I've been thinking...that maybe if we get permitted, that me and Chan could take you outside the hospital today" Hyunjin approached, wrapping an arm around the younger's frail physic.

Jeongin smiled briefly. But shook his head.

The past following days haven't been good, he has started to miss every meal and snack and hiding away in the bathroom to cry. Days has been terrifying for the past week since the meeting with his father. The avoidance he proceeded with pulled him on an all-time low, and it hurt, knowing that he won't make it far if he kept this up.

He didn't want to disappoint the two men. But he genuinely didn't feel like being happy today.

It hurt.

So damn bad that he could feel it in his bones.

"Maybe some other day..I'm not feeling quite well today" he sighed, turning to look at Hyunjin with teary and swollen eyes.

"Hey..you know you can tell me anything right?" Hyunjin comforted, rubbing his hands against his arms soothingly.

It's funny how the first Hey was always exciting. But the second was always filled with so much worry and concern.

It almost felt surreal to him that he had two of these people, hugging him and talking him through stuff. Those two people weren't his parents, but two strangers he met months ago.

"I know" he muttered, hanging his head low as he sighed. "But I'm fine on my own today. You should go with Chan" he encouraged, providing a sad smile as he turned around.

He felt bad for turning one of his favorite people down. If genuinely sat heavy on his heart. But he couldn't help but feel the need to reject the offer. Hyunjin was kind, Chan equally as kind. And he hated from the bottom of his heart to turn them down.

As he was about to step away from the disappointed male, he flinched at a presence in which has stood behind him the whole time.

"We can do something else, hm? We don't need to be going anywhere if you don't feel like it".

He felt uneasy spotting Chan with a heavy frown on his face. He didn't know how to tell them that he just didn't want to socialize or be with people today, but he also didn't want them to feel upset with his decision. He felt troubled and confused, his eyes closing in an attempt to figure out the right words to say.

But it seemed like it took too long for the two men to stand impatiently, so he was pushed forward, forced to go with them.

Feeling panicked. He couldn't help but just follow, allowing the older to push him gently forward as he hesitated to go with them.

He felt devastated about so many things. But he couldn't deny the truth.

It did feel nice to have a certain support. Provided by the two men, he got nothing but care and gentle hugs and praises. In which is has never experienced before.

"I don't care how sad you are, flower. You won't get rid of us thar easily" Chan chuckled as they reached a familiar door. Jeongin tilted his head as they entered the room, surprised to see pillows and blankets on the floor, and a laptop on the floor.

"We thought we could use it for movie night tomorrow, but I think we all could need a good movie right now" Hyunjin smiled, sitting himself down on the floor, his hands reaching out for Jeongin who observed the gesture.

The way Hyunjin hand shook slightly, waiting for the younger to step unto the blankets and lay down to cuddle up with them. It made Jeongin smile briefly, stepping closer to the male who waited expectedly on him.

As he fell on to his knees carefully, he immediately embraced the latter who chuckled at the younger who cuddled closer into the warmth radiating off of him.

There wasn't anything compared to drowning into somebody else's embrace. to allow yourself to get your breath taken away so suddenly, yet feeling so comfortable you wouldn't want to move. It felt just like that. All that denying and rejection wasn't enough to keep the two desperate men away. They obviously cared in a much different way than anybody else he has encountered the past many months he has been isolated from society.

Though, he didn't focus on that. It wasn't nearly as obvious to him compared to how obvious it was to them. They could see it all, and he felt it all. He wanted to be close to them, but even if it felt nice...today just felt abnormally guilty.

He knew they weren't his heroes or saviors. But they made him forget everything about himself. Current time and past time didn't matter shit to him. And perhaps he aasnt drowning I their embrace, but using it as an excuse to drown in his own misery infront of them.

And they knew.

And he didn't.

They could see.

He was blind.

Everything they saw wasn't only just concern or worry. It was a sentimental level of understanding the genuine emotions behind the hollow pair of eyes that stared back at them.

But Jeongin saw nothing but a pair of beautiful, white angel wings, embracing his body to bring him warmth. Not only did it make him calm down. But feel a form of safety and genuine love from the two men.

But it felt so weird, blushing when making direct eye contact with either of them, and willingly cuddling up into their arms like a stupid high school romance.

But it was very real.

Even if it didn't feel like it.

"I'm sorry for being an inconvenience..I know you probably wanted to go outside and-" he was silenced by a soft chuckled from behind, and a hand rubbing from his lower back to his shoulder blades.

"You did nothing wrong, angel. We are completely fine with watching movies in here, as long as you aren't too busy inside your own mindset for too long. Then we are happy, yeah?".