Our Girl Book 1 {Stray Kids Fanfiction}

Chapter 38: Ma'am

Han's blood ran cold and his heart dropped. "What? Baby, no! Is that what you think happened?"

Lily desperately stared at him. "I don't know! Everything is so-"

The medbay door opened and Seungmin walked in. Before he could open his mouth, Han asked urgently, "Why doesn't she know what happened? She thinks Chan is sending her back to JYP."

Seungmin's eyes widened and he froze, realizing the severity of what what playing in her mind. In that moment, he had decided that keeping Chan out of this for now was the worst thing he could do to her. She had to hear the truth from him. "Lily, honey, none of this is what you think it is." He assured as he sat on the bed next to them. "My beautiful girl, you aren't going anywhere. And what Chan made you do- baby, it was for your own protection." He could see her trying to put the pieces together as he explained. "You had an episode and because of that, your memories aren't adding up. Can I get Chan? I think he should be in here with you to help explain, but only if you're comfortable with it."

Lily thought for a second, "He's not mad at me?"

"Of course not, beautiful. He's only mad at himself." Seungmin replied.

Lily took a deep breath and nodded.

Seungmin smiled, then took out his phone and sent a text to Chan, asking him to come to medbay.

As they waited, Han sang to her while Seungmin got the first aid kit and brought it to the bedside.

"What's this for?" She asked curiously.

Seungmin pursed his lips together and hesitantly replied, "Your thighs."

With everything happening, she hadn't noticed the stinging pain in her thighs until he mentioned it. She pulled back the blankets, and gasped and tears formed in her eyes when she saw the bloody wounds she had left with her fingernails on top of the extreme discoloration that Chan had left her with the night before.

Han's eyes and mouth widened in shock as he had seen them for the first time. He hugged her tightly and with a hushed, saddened tone, he said, "Oh, my love."

Seungmin had just begun to clean the blood from her legs when Chan slowly walked in. "Babygirl?"

Seeing her hesitation, Han whispered into her ear. "Remember, love. It's not what you think. You don't have to look away from us. Please, don't look away from us."

Hearing his words helped to calm her increasing anxiety. She finally peeked to see Chan staring helplessly at her, with tears streaming down his face as he slowly stepped toward her.

Without removing focus from treating her wounds, Seungmin spoke up. "Chan, you need to pull up a chair. She needs to hear it from you."

As Chan got closer, he saw the the destruction she had caused to her legs, but contained his reactions. Instead of pulling up a chair, he asked, "Babygirl, can I sit here?" He motioned to the empty area of the bed in front of where Han sat, holding her.

Lily nodded, then winced when Seungmin grazed the medicated cotton swap over one of the deeper wounds.

He sat in front of them and gently took her hand into his. "Babygirl, I am so sorry. I'm so sorry that I put you in that position."

She looked deeply into his eyes. A sense of relief that she desperately needed overwhelmed her.

Chan barely took a breath as he explained, "Babygirl, I fucked up. I should have never taken you in public, knowing JYP was still breathing. I didn't think- when I saw him walk in, I panicked. I knew he'd spot us and come over to us and if he had any suspicions, we wouldn't be able to carry out our mission tomorrow, and you would be in danger. Babygirl, I would have never given you those commands, and I certainly wouldn't have ignored your safe word. I would never intentionally do anything to hurt you." Chan took a breath and brought her hand to his lips and pressed them against her knuckles. "Babygirl, fear is not an emotion that I experience, but I was so terrified at the the thought of losing you, that I reacted. I gave you those commands, not thinking about what it would do to you in the process. I'm so very sorry, my babygirl and I love you more than you could possibly imagine."

She listened carefully to every word he said to her. As he spoke, the events of the night came together to paint a much different picture than what had been invading her mind. Suddenly, her eyes widened as she realized exactly what Chan was saying. Tears began to fall as she leaped from Han's arms into Chan's. "I love you too Channie! I'm so sorry! I didn't remebe-"

"Hey, no ma'am. You're not allowed to apologize for anything." Chan instructed as he held her in his strong, comforting embrace. "I love you so much my babygirl. So so much." He stressed.

Seungmin and Han smiled with relief as the two held each other. Han slid himself off the bed to give them space.

"Han, you should let the others know whats going on while I finish getting her cleaned and bandaged." Seungmin instructed before flashing a menacing grin. "And don't forget to tell them that he called her 'ma'am.'" He added with a smug wink.

"Got it." Han laughed as he exited the room.

Lily furrowed his brows at Chan, "Why is that such a big deal?" She asked curiously.

Seungmin cleared his throat, and chuckled. "Because he refuses to address anyone other than his superiors as 'sir' or 'ma'am.'"

Chan glared at him, then rolled his eyes. Lily gazed at Chan with a prideful grin. "Oh, really?" She giggled.

Chan grazed the inside of his cheek with his tongue. "Yes really, and now I will never hear the end of it. Thank you Seungmin." He replied sarcastically.

Seungmin nodded and said, "My pleasure, old man. Ok beautiful, we need to get doctored, then you're free to go."

Chan glared at Seungmin, then moved to Han's previous position and held Lily as Seungmin bandaged her legs.

Suddenly, a serious expression covered Lily's face. "Minnie, am I cleared for the operation tomorrow?"

Seungmin thought for a moment, "I think you should be good to go by then as long as Chan agrees. I'll check back in on you beforehand to make sure you're in the right state of mind."

Chan nodded and smiled. "The doctor has spoken. I wouldn't want you to miss this opportunity." He beamed as he kissed her forehead.

Lily's tone and expression darkened and a sadistic smile creeped across her face as she simply replied, "Good."