The Self-conscious Submissive

Little Rainbows

-Dylan

I went to work leaving Monica to take care of our home. I was still upset with her but the fact that she was accepting these new rules and wasn't resisting me made it easier. She was giving me the control that I needed from her and that eased my frustrations.

I made my way to my office to put my things away before I made my way to the event. We were hosting an event for the charity that I help run called Little Rainbows it's an LGBTQ+ foundation that helps the youth who struggle with coming out and acceptance. When I was 16 I came out to my family and they did not accept it or me for who I was. Liam and I both had families that disclaimed us after they found out that we were gay. We both ended up on our own and had to work our asses off to survive in college when we met we bonded over our traumas and when we were in a place where we could help others we started this charity for others to protect the youth from going through the same things we went through. And also for the ones who are accepted but still need allies and education about their new lifestyles.

It was a charity that was near and dear to both of our hearts. The two of us had been working our asses off for months getting it together and I was happy that it was finally going down. This was an all-hands-on-deck event all of us who worked here were in the community or cared for this organization. Which is one of the main reasons I was so upset with Monica this whole time I didn't have time to focus on her and her bullshit when I had something so important going on. I planned on having her here to show her this world. She wasn't apart of the leg work for this party so she had no idea about it and now she will never know. I did at least have Trinity who would be here later to work with her Aunt Hope waitressing the event.

I was logging onto my computer to check my e-mail when a knock came on my door. 

"Enter," I said.

"Hey Sis, you ready for tonight," Liam asked making his way in.

"Yes, I'm excited to finally get this started. I've been looking forward to this all year," I said smiling at him.

"Yeah me too, this is really my favorite thing we do here," he said agreeing.

He sat at the chair in front of my desk making himself comfortable. I  knew everything was set up and his staff would be handling things so I wasn't worried that he was sitting around. 

"Hey, where's Scrumpet?"He asked looking around the room.

"She's suspended until further notice," I told him.

I wasn't quiet sure if I was going to fire her completely or not yet all I knew was for now I didn't want her here. 

"I see, well I think you made the right decision she shouldn't get special treatment just because of yaws relationship," he said surprising me.

I half expected him to come to her defense the two of them are pretty close and I know he'll be upset she's not here to joke around with.

"Yeah I didn't think so either," I told him.

"How are you feeling about that," he asked.

"Honestly I'm still trying to deal with all of that. But for now I don't want to think about Monica. Tonight is about our Little Rainbows," I told him

He nodded his head and smiled at me "Yes let's go celebrate them," he said.

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The room was filled with teens and young adults all here to live in their truths. Some accepted by their families but not by society bullied by classmates or other outsiders. Some not accepted by their families. Others were to afraid to even take the risk in finding out if they'd be accepted or not. All of them found a home in our charity where they could feel safe to be themselves. 

I stood on the stage where we would have motivational speakers speak, and performers do their thing entertaining the crowd. The room had plenty of food and treats and other activities to ensure they'd have fun for the night. We had pulled it together and the smiles on their faces and the laughter in the room swelled my heart with joy. 

I moved to the podium to announce the official start of the event.

"Welcome to our annual Out-the-Closet Party. We know it's unfair that you have to come out and can't just be you and be happy about it but it's our reality. So for the ones that aren't able to live in their truth because of the fear of being accepted, and the ones who were safe in coming out but still just want to shout it out. To the people who feel like nobody will love them and accept them for who they are and the ones who are brave enough o let their gay flags fly not caring who sees. I want all of you at the count of 3 to shout your truths right now at the top of your lungs be cause we are all accepted here. And we are not ashamed of who we are."

1, 2, 3, the room filled with screams and cheers, shouting I am a Lesbian, I am Gay, Bi, Trans, Queer, Pan, and every other letter of the alphabet that hasn't been accepted by society. The screams were some of these people's first ties every being able to speak their truths out loud. Those were the ones that screamed it the loudest and tears feel from their eyes as those fleeting moments of freedom and acceptance rang through the room. 

"You are not alone whenever you think that you are, Whenever you feel like giving up, Whenever you feel you are unloved. Know that you are not alone because we are here for you," I said finishing off my speech.

More cheers and applause rang through the room as I walked off the stage and the love and acceptance in the room strummed inside of me. 

"You did good here Dilly, this is so beautiful I am so proud of you and so proud to be by your side," Trinity said walking up and hugging me.

"Thank you, Princess," I said hugging her back.

She smiled up at me and then scurried back off to work before her aunt came to find her.

I looked over to Hazel and Liam she was showing the girls makeup techniques and Liam and his big bear-like self were being used as a makeup canvas to some hyper teen girls, To Jade who was surrounded by flirty teenage girls and some studs who were checking out her drumset. In another corner, Chef Brian was teaching some young chefs some simple recipes they could make at home for the ones who didn't have anybody to take care of them. I tried my best to silence the voice in my head thinking about Monica at home and what she would have brought to the party. I had to focus on those who were here for me and the kids. My Diamonds all aside from Hazel who was our straight ally who understood what it was like to hide her true self was affected by the struggles of acceptance in the world and tonight was about us.

The event went perfectly the kids loved it and we raised a lot of money for the foundation. I was so proud my whole team was doing their part to help them have at least one good night. I couldn't wait til next year to do this again.

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