The Self-conscious Submissive

Date

-Monica

I had 2 days: to figure out what I wanted to do on my date with Dylan.

48 hours: To find the right words to say to apologize for how badly I hurt her.

2, 880 minutes:  to figure out how to convince her to keep me as not only her submissive but maybe, possibly, hopefully, something more.

172, 800 seconds: to find a way to convince her to give me my collar back and make her believe that I'll never remove it again.

After I left Dylan I texted Trinity and promised her that I was going to fix things. That I'll make it right and then we'd go on that date for her to curse me out and tell me how clueless I am. I pressed send and smiled thinking about Trinity and the last time I saw her and the kiss she gave me. She had feelings for me her and Dylan did they both wanted me. I was so damn blind and so clueless Ugh. Just like Trinity kept telling me I was. But now that I see it and I know it. I can't give them up without a fight.

My cheeks burned red just imagining it. Me and Dylan? Me and Trinity? Me, and Dylan, and Trinity? I didn't know that this was something I wanted but now that I know I can't think of anything else. 

I sat at the desk in my room in Sir Meyer's house making a list of things to do on our date. I scribbled a million different date ideas and couldn't think of what was right. I wasn't sure what I should do. If I was just wanting to entice her to be my Dom again I'd probably write some scene or fantasy out. I would hope that whatever I imagined would be wild enough that it would make her want me back. But this wasn't just that. I didn't want to just entice her as my Dom I wanted her to see me as a potential partner. But how do I do that? 

I ripped a piece of paper out of my notebook and threw it into the trashcan. Not actually in the trashcan cause I had no hand-eye coordination. But the fact that I attempted the shot and got somewhere in the vicinity felt good. 

"Knock Knock," I heard Kaylan say from the other side of the door.

"Come in," I said welcoming the distraction. 

He came in bearing gifts a tray of freshly baked cookies and glasses of milk.

"Oh thank you I could use a break," I said taking a glass of milk. 

Kaylan made his way over to my bed and sat down with the tray of cookies. "Why is planning a date for you Master not as easy as you thought it'd be?"  

I nodded my head as I took a bite of a Snickerdoodle cookie. The warm scent of cinnamon warmed my senses and I moaned as the sweet delicate taste exploded on my tastebuds.

"Mmmm this is so good I could orgasm," I moaned. "Remind me to ask Mrs. Nancy for her recipe before I leave."

Mrs. Nancy was Sir. Meyer's Housekeeper and she's an amazing cook. I swear I gained like 10 pounds since I moved in.

Kaylan sat down on my bed and made himself comfortable before biting into a cookie letting out his own satisfied moan. 

"Ok, 1st off don't and secondly don't even bother trying Mrs. Nancy doesn't share her recipes with anybody.

The two of us ate in silence for a moment giving the cookies the respect they deserved before we spoke again. "How do I get her to want me not just as her submissive but as her girlfriend?"

Kaylan was quiet for a moment before he let out a heavy sigh, "Why are you making it so complicated? Just tell her how you feel."

I groaned at his simple response. He really spoke like he had the answer, "It's not that simple."