The Self-conscious Submissive

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Possible Trigger Warning, **Abusive Scenario** will label before and after.

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-Monica

The room filled with an awkward silence and I just sat there while they processed my story. I was honest about the whole thing what I did, why I did it, the things I said to Dylan, and the fact that I realized I was wrong about the whole thing this morning. Even though I still refused to go see her, because I just couldn't face her. It was just better if I stayed away. But the longer they were quiet the stupider I felt why did I come here? I shouldn't have come here and told them this. It's so embarrassing Sir Meyers is probably thanking God that he didn't get me as a submissive. And Kaylan probably is thinking thank god she's not my sub-sister because she would have ruined my life.

"I need to apologize to you Stephanie," Sir Meyers says out of nowhere.

My eyes shoot up to him and I try to calculate in my mind what I said to this man that would make him feel like he needed to apologize to me. "Why do you need to apologize Sir?" I ask completely lost.

"Do you remember the day we met? When I had you come to my BDSM club instead of the club you had applied at?" he asked.

I nodded my head remembering the random request that was sent almost an hour before I was supposed to meet him. I was thrown off by the sudden change and it had filled me with even more anxiety meeting him in a place that I wasn't comfortable in.

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"Well, the reason why I had to have you meet me at the club is because the club's assistant manager had gotten into a fight with another Dom. One of our newer submissives Alexis who is actually a little had signed a contract with a Dom that she had met outside of the club. She stopped showing up after that it had been a solid 3 months since we had seen her. The day she and him had visited here the night before we met. The man he was, he, Sir Myers looked down at the floor and pain showed on his face. 

I wanted to tell him that he didn't need to finish the story but I also wanted to know what he was trying to tell me. 

"The training a Dom has to go through at our club to understand what it means to be submissive is very extensive. When you go through training at the clubs we teach you how to speak, how to discipline, and how to give aftercare, we teach about hard limits and safety, and how to treat your specified submissives because of course there are different types of submissives and you can't treat them all the same. We put a Dom in a submissive mindset so that they understand what a sub goes through and feels so that they learn to respect and care for their submissives. If you understand your submissive then you can not and will not ever cross that line and harm your submissive or disrespect your submissive, Sir Meyers informed me. 

I didn't realize the training Dom's went through was so extensive it was more similar to what we submissives had to go through than I thought. That made me happy to know that though to ensure the safety and care for other submissives. 

"The night at the club when the two of them came in you could practically feel the fear resonating off of her. My assistant manager and I were setting up a demonstration so we weren't around to notice her at first. Luckily Kaylan was working as a waiter that night. He had already had a feeling that something was off. As I said before Alexis was a little, and we later found out that her Dom in his mind believed he was a sadist, those two obviously don't match. That night he had her on the floor wearing a collar and a leash so Kaylan made it his duty to serve her table and keep an eye on the two. When the submissives go through training at our club they are taught hand signals to alert somebody when they feel their in danger. She gave him the signal and Kaylan notified the bartender for the night a Domme who worked at the club for a long time. Not wanting to to alert the guy she set Kaylan to watch over the two under the ruse of giving him V.I.P treatment while she went to get me."