The Self-conscious Submissive

Talk

-Dylan

I stayed the night at Liam's place we got home after 2 in the morning so we called it a night. Well they did I never went to sleep I sat up and listened to Trinity's voice messages and read over all of her texts. She apologized to me over and over again. Promising me that she was ok and that everything Monica said was not how she felt. I lay there staring at the ceiling questioning myself and my actions trying to balance in my mind the line that was made and whether I actually crossed it with her or just crossed myself.

Because I didn't sleep I was awake to get a random notification in the middle of the night letting me know that Monica checked herself into a hotel. I had no idea what the hell she was pulling and I couldn't decide what I wanted to do about it yet.  I just knew I needed to figure this thing out with Trinity first before I went chasing her ass around.

Around Noon Liam came knocking on my door, "Alright, Dylan that's enough hiding from you. Common out and tell us what happened."

I groaned still not in the mood to talk dragged my body out of the bed and made my way to the living room where the concerned faces of my Diamonds were all looking at me.

"Damn Bro you look like shit," Jade said to me as soon as I walked into the room.

I was still wearing my clothes from last night's event not having the energy to change. My dreads were set up in a messy bun, my tie was loosened hanging lazily from my collar, my button-up was untucked and wrinkly and my slacks honed matching wrinkles.

"Nope," I said turning back towards the room. 

I  am not about to have a whole group therapy session. I barely wanted to talk to Liam and Brian about this and now I had the twins here too. Before I could even get a step away Liam's 6'6, 250 lb, bald-headed, hairy-chested, overly muscular ass was standing in my way blocking me.

I looked up at him annoyed, "Why are you so damn big." 

At 6'3 I was only a few inches shorter than him but his weight and muscle made me look tiny.

"So I can pick up little pain in the asses like you. And I will pick you up and drag you into that room if you don't walk yourself in there," he threatened.

I looked him up and down and debated if I could take him.

"You can't," he said answering my thoughts.

"I don't like you," I said scowling at him.

"I'm fine with that. Now common Sis seriously let us be here for you," he replied putting his big gentle hand on my shoulder.

I  sighed giving in and walked back toward the living room giving Jade an evil look. "I'm a 10 even on a bad day, Fuck you very much."

"Alright Jade leave Dylan alone you can tell she's going through it enough without you harassing her," Hazel chastised her. 

Jade put her hands up. "Alright, Alright my bad you beautiful and whatnot."

"Thank you," I said plopping down on the couch.

"Not better looking than me though," she said under her breath.

I gave her a side eye but didn't bother replying.

Once I was settled and it didn't seem like I was gonna run again Liam came in and sat on the couch next to me.

"Alright, spill it?" Brian said. 

I looked at them and debated if I really wanted to talk about my relationship drama with my employees. 

"I don't know I'm just feeling a lot of emotions and I can't seem to sort them out in my head. I can't tell if I was the bad guy or the victim. Should I be sad or mad? I don't do feeling and I've been having to deal with them a lot lately and it's confusing the shit out of me," I sighed.