The Self-conscious Submissive

No Limits

-Dylan

I realized something when all of this was going down with how Monica reacted and how I felt about punishing Trinity. We had invested enough time in our relationship now and she had proven herself to be committed to us and this lifestyle. But when it came to her disobeying me it still brought back all that hurt and stuff back. It reminded me what I desired the most out of this relationship and that was control. After I got past the initial hurt of betrayal and talked to my Diamonds I knew at the end of the day I loved Trinity and I wasn't going to leave her. I also accepted that she was gullible and would fall for Monica's bullshit. It pissed me off but it wasn't a deal breaker if I could deal with it how I needed to. Without guilt without hesitation, I needed her trust in me to deal with this to balance out the lack of trust I lost in her. 

I knew I had it when she gave me that contract but it was trust with stipulations I wanted all of her trust and all of the control. I waited for her to make her decision. I knew this was a big deal this was going to mean our relationship was going to change drastically. I know she's seen the relationship I had with Monica and how I treated her and that would mean that this would be her life now too. She wasn't going to be able to say no anymore, she wasn't going to be able to draw lines, I would be in full control over her and she would have to accept that.

"Yes I can, I will, I love you and I don't want anything else to stand between us anymore. I will serve you no more hard limits. I want to be your slave please use my body however you please Master. I want all of the pain and pleasure no more fear no more doubts I just want you," she replied.

My heart soared and a new feeling of pride and possessiveness took over my core. I wanted this I needed this but just like before when I offered to become her Dom this was her choice. She had to choose to submit to me which meant that she trusted me. She wanted this relationship and connection the same way I did. But I couldn't celebrate just yet there was still the possibility of her changing her mind after her punishment.

"I appreciate your quick reply Princess but I'm not going to accept your answer until after your punishment. Like I said I don't want you to take this lightly. I want you to see and feel exactly what this life will be so you have no doubts or regrets of what your future holds."

She looked a little hurt by my lack of acceptance but I needed her to be sure. I did this the first time when we decided to enter this relationship. I punished her first to be sure she could handle it and then when we were done we made our decision together. It held us together all of this time so I had no doubt in my method. I just had to follow through.

"Ok Master, I'll wait until after my punishment," she replied.

With our agreement, I was ready to start. I kept my face set firm containing my emotions, "Alright let's finish your punishment. Get your ass over that spanking bench slut." 

She looks up at me nervously biting her lip, "Yes Master."

I placed her back on the spanking bench and strapped her in. Her arms were restrained, her hips raised and her legs spread open and restrained, her breast hanging free of the bench for me to torment. This time with no doubt I could follow through with this punishment and have it end how I wanted it to.

"Why are you being punished Slut?" I ask.

She looked up at me guiltily, "I disobeyed you, Master, I came into the playroom without permission, I touched myself for pleasure without your permission, I used a toy without your permission and used it on Monica, I didn't call you when I knew she was in here allowing myself to disobey you further. I didn't put you first Master and for that I'm sorry," she replied.

I shook my head at her, "That's a long list."

"I know Master, I'm sorry please punish me for my disobedience," she replied.