Subject; LOVE

Subject;91

"WOAH, you're still drinking pala?" Renzel asked. I looked at him. I invite him to come over here in my place.

"How are you, cous?" I ask. He proudly smile at me.

"Happy and contended. Ikaw?" My brow furrowed.

"With that girl?" Ngiwing tanong ko. I didn't know after all these years he's still into her.

"Nope. Of course not."

"Then who?"

"The boy that I love." Napakurap ako't napatitig rito. "Punta ka sa kasal ko ha?"

"You're..."

"Gay, yeah."

"Then who is this person that bend you?" I asked.

"Teka lang naman! Ikaw ba? Kumusta? You barely drink liquor lalo na kung may klase ka bukas but now, wow. Anong meron?" Pagbabaling nito sa akin. I sigh. "Babae no?"

"Yeah..."

"Problem?"

"I like her..."

"Then?"

"She's my student." Sagot ko at yumuko sa basong hawak ko.

"Umamin ka na ba?" Tanong nya at umiling ako. I haven't had a chance to talk to her these passed few days. Palagi na lang syang umiiwas sa akin. "Umamin ka, sometimes you need to be vocal to your feelings. Pero ang problema don ay estudyante mo, mahirap yan. It's against the law of the school, right?" Hindi ako sumagot.

"That girl... was the sister of the guy who betrayed me." Panimula ako at kinuwento ko sa kanya ang mga nangyari pati na rin ang plano ko sanang paghiganti but I think I'm not doing it anymore.

"Holy cow, Xie!" He said while laughing. "Things gone wrong, ganon ba? The plan on revenging turned into liking. Wow." Problemado ko itong tiningnan.

"Guilt eating me." Pag-aamin ko.

"Malamang! So, what are you gonna do now? Sasabihin mo bang pinag-planuhan mo syang gamitin laban sa kapatid nya para sana makapaghiganti pero ikaw din ang nahulog?" Tanong nya na kinailing ko.

"No... I won't tell to her... I can't bare seeing her in pain, just thinking of her crying... hindi ko yata yon kakayanin. I'll just... regret it in silent. Magsisisi na lang ako ng tahimik at hihingi ng kapatawaran nya ng palihim... I'll... I'll do everything..." Bulong ko.

"How sure you are that she won't know about it? Remember, walang sekretong hindi nabubunyag." Aniya na sumampal sa akin. How sure I am that she won't really know about it?

One thing is sure when she find out... she'll be mad and she will hate me, really. And I don't want that to happen.

"Payong kaibigan at pinsan, Xie. Be wise on what you are doing. Lahat ay may kapalit. Lahat ay may parusa. If I am to you, I will tell her and asked for her forgiveness. I will tell her whatever it takes. Kung magagalit sya, then so be it. Tatanggapin ko ang galit nya at pagta-trabahuhan ang kapatawaran nya. You like her? And you can't stand seeing her in pain? You're wrong in your interpretation of your feelings, Xie. Think of it. And one thing, before you make a move to her, make sure na pinutol mo na ang nararamdaman mong kung ano mula sa nakaraan mo. You might lose her in just a snap of a fingers." Aniya bago ako iwang nakatulala sa kawalan.

IT IS normal to be clingy to someone after you confess? Because that's me right now. I can't even stand a day not tasting her red and delectable lips. Mabilis na rin akong mainis lalo na kung nakikita ko syang may kasamang lalaking kaibigan nya o di kaya ay yung batang Ylton na palagi nyang tinatabihan sa library.