First Kiss Chapter one. Trying to work up the nerve!

Chapter 56, painful memories.

Chapter 56, painful memories.

The stands were deserted now, the place was quiet except for some cries and sniffles as the lone person sat in the grassy field watching nothing and seeing nothing.

Snape had not moved from the place the whole day, against his wishes the tears had flowed. Snape did not care that the sky was darkening with the coming of night. He just wanted to turn time back and to keep from talking to Narcissa where Lily would hear him. Snape knew that none of what he said was true; he only said it to keep Narcissa happy and from going after Lily and then going to the Dark Lord and telling him. Snape’s only concern was trying to keep Lily safe from the Death Eaters and the Dark Lord.

That was his whole point in talking with Narcissa and telling her what she wanted to hear, it was not though meant to be heard by Lily and have her hate him now. Snape lay down on the soft grass, he had no clue what to do to get Lily to believe him, that he really did love her and wanted to make her happy, and that he’d never mean anything like that.

The night wore on and Snape had fallen to sleep lying on the grass out in the Quiddich field. In the wee hours of the morning, Snape woke up shivering with the cold dew having dampened his clothes. Snape walked slowly up to the castle, his body aching from the cold. Snape used his wand to unlock the front doors and walked inside. The place was dark and very quiet. Snape walked to the boys’ bathrooms where the bathtubs were located. Snape stripped and step into the tub letting the hot water warm him up. Snape had stayed there until he started to hear movements around him. He climbed out and slipped into some clothes and headed for the Great Hall. Once there he saw a few early risers and sat down at the Slytherin table. A few of his friends walked over to him once they spotted him when they came inside for breakfast.

“Hey Snape, where were you last night, we had a blast in the common room.” Igor told him.

“I’ll say you really missed out.” Avery laughed pleased with the party they had in their common room. He pulled many dishes toward him.

Snape said nothing.

“Don’t tell me you were with some chick celebrating alone?” Mulciber said incredulous. He was watching his friend for some kind of sign that would give away his emotions. He frowned since he could never read Snape like others in their house.

Snape looked at him with deaden eyes. “As though I would tell you what we…. I was up too.” Snape amended; at this point it would be better for them to believe he was off getting some with some girl then to know he spent the night alone crying.

“No way Snape, you the man, who is she?” Mulciber looked up and down the table eagerly glad that his friend basically told him since he wouldn’t be able to tell what had happen without his being told.

“Any of you blokes remember any of the girls not being there last night?”

The other two boys looked thoughtful as they tried to remember what girls were not there.

“Hey that short ugly toad girl she wasn’t there.” Avery suddenly spoke up. He figured it had to be her, since she was always chasing after Snape and he knew he wouldn’t care what the girl looked like as long as he got some.

Snape gave him the dirtiest look possible while showing him his middle finger. He wasn’t going to bother talking to him after that supreme insult.

“What?” Avery said innocently. “She wasn’t there.”

“Arse, she hasn’t been to school all year she didn’t come back she stayed at home to learn from her parents.” Igor told him with a hint of humor in his oily voice. He chuckled again at the idea, he knew he had shagged her once for something to pass the time but figured his friend Severus wouldn’t touch that girl. He had to admit he didn’t know any who would and her moaning Severus’s name the whole time was off putting and another reason he never took her again.