Double Down Demons (A Ghost Adventures/Zak Bagans Story)

Chapter 35: Lap dogs and bitches

I peak around Billy's shoulder realising he hadn't yet seen me, I give him a sheepish smile and he frowns.

"Tracy? What's going on?" His brow knits into a worried frown and I gulp.

"You better come sit down and listen to this." He does as I say without a word, I watch as his face pales while listening to my recording.

'I don't understand, when did you get this?" He asks the frown deepening and his eyes dark. I explain again what happened after he left that morning.

'And you weren't going to fucking tell me?!" He explodes, his face thunderous, his eyes now so dark they were almost black.

'I..I didn't want to worry you, you have enough on your plate without adding me to the list." I try to explain calmly, surprised at the heat of his reaction.

'Don't be so fucking stupid Tracy!" He spits at me causing me to sit back in the chair. "From now on you will tell me every little fucking thing that happens to you, you hear a mouse squeak you tell me, you feel a breeze you tell me, you need the bathroom, you fucking tell me! Hear me?" He demands. I blink at him dumbfounded. I really don't know what response he was expecting but it sure as hell wasn't the response he got.

"Don't you fucking dare call me stupid!" I hiss through my teeth feeling the rage boiling my blood. "I'm sorry I didn't come running straight to you like some helpless damsel needing her manly knight in shining armour! Know what I did do? I took a shower because I was fine! I am fine! I dealt with it myself, my main worry was telling you! Don't you think that speaks volumes? And it seems that I was fucking right to hesitate just for all the wrong reasons!" I rant.

"Tracy, don't..." He tries to interrupt.

"No! I haven't fucking finished! I'm sorry if i'm not reacting the way you think I should but you know its my first time dealing with a fucking demon! A fucking demon Zak!! But I am dealing with it the best way I know how, by trying to maintain a modicum of control, I will not let it control me! Nor will I let YOU control me!" I point at his chest. "I will not let you fucking dictate what I do or don't do.Fucking get over yourself, you can't order me around, i'm not one of your little lap dogs!" I yell, I falter slightly as Zak flinches at my words but I can see the anger seething in the amber sparks in his eyes.

"Yeah, you've got that right, you're no lapdog more like a pedigree bitch!"He spits back at me with pure venom. "Shit Tracy! What the fuck?Stop being so fucking unreasonable, i'm trying to keep you safe! This is all my fault!" He shakes his head.

"Its not all about you Zak Bagans!" I shout. "I need to learn to be able to deal with this for when you're not around, you won't be here soon remember! You'll be fucking off back to your sweet life in Vegas while I get left behind, alone on the other side of the world." I bite my lip trying not to show him how upset I am. " So this pedigree bitch is just trying to keep some semblance of normality so she can stay sane! Now this bitch needs a fucking walk!" I push past Zak, wiping the traitorous tear from my eye.

"Tracy..." He tries to grab my hand as I pass him.

"Don't!"I warn him as I pull away and storm out of the room without looking back at Zak who is left to watch after my retreating back alone as the others had wisely disappeared. I slam the door behind me and rest against it for a second. Hearing a crash coming from the room behind me I make a quick get away before he finds me still outside trying to swallow down the threatening tears. Not wanting to be alone I head off to the only place I can think of and knock tentatively on the door.