Addicted

107 (Colby's POV)

She was hugging Chloe tightly and I heard the sobs from where I was standing. My dead heart broke into pieces. Damn it, this is not what I wanted at all.

 I walked closer to them.

"It's gonna be okay Chloe. I promise baby." Kat was rubbing her back as she sobbed into her neck.

 Kat caught my eye as I walked towards them and shook her head, glaring at me.

 I stopped.

"I don't know what to do Kat. I feel like I'm losing myself. I love him, damn it, I love him so much but is it worth losing who I am?"

I walked away, back towards the house. I stood by the entrance way so that I could still hear what was being said.

I know, creepy stalker mode, but I had to know.

"When you love someone, you always feel that way. It's like they take a piece of you with them...but you gain so much more. I know what he did was fucked up Chloe. You have to remember that he isn't used to this though. He's already so different than from when I first met him. Remember, I told you that he was an asshole and I didn't like him."

Well damn Kat, tell me how you really feel. I didn't know that she didn't like me.

How could my best friend's girl not like me? I guess I didn't really give her a reason to though. I sort of treated her like an annoying gnat in the room. Not worth my time. I really was an asshole.

 Chloe sniffled and nodded.

"Well, now I can tolerate him. Just because of how he's changed being with you. It's going to take time, but it's up to you on whether or not you are willing to give in to him and bear with the mistakes that he's bound to make."

Chloe leaned back away from her and wiped her eyes. "I want to be with him Kat, you know I do. I didn't think that I could or ever would feel this deeply. This is too damn intense. It physically hurts my chest to see him with someone else, even just pressed up against him. I don't want my entire life to revolve around him though. I can't lose myself. I've worked too hard to become who I am. I think I need a few days to gather myself again. Try to work out these feelings and maybe see if I can deal with being away from him for a little while. I'm not even sure that I can function without him after just a couple of days. How pathetic is that?"

 I didn't think it was pathetic...okay, maybe it was a little pathetic but I felt the same way so it didn't matter. I didn't want her to be away from me at all. I needed her with me.

There was an unbearable pull towards her, even now with me just standing in the doorway, to be closer to her.

"It's not pathetic girl. Look, take a couple of days to spend away from him. Go home, get some rest, go to work tomorrow. Live normally and forget that you have a vampire boyfriend. I'll come stay with you. We'll have a girls weekend. Yeah?"

I needed someone other than Kat to keep an eye on her though. Maybe I would just do it myself and not let her see me. Not like I hadn't done it before.

Yeah, that sounds like a good plan. I didn't trust anyone else except maybe Sam to watch over her anyways. Maybe not even Sam because he would be too preoccupied with Katrina.

 I needed blood though. Before I left to follow her home.

"That sounds great Kat. Thank you. You don't mind leaving early?"

Kat shook her head. "Not at all. Just let me tell Sam and I'll be right back. Why don't you walk back up here with me?"

Chloe shook her head this time.

Stubborn ass.

"Okay, well I'll be right back. Stay right here okay?"

 She nodded and Kat headed towards me. When she passed me, she was glaring.

"Happy?" She muttered and kept walking into the house.

"Not especially," I replied. "Hey Kat," I called out.

She turned back.

"Just be safe okay?"

Her eyes softened a little. "You actually love her, huh? She's your One?"

 I nodded. "If the One is real then yeah. There's no one else. There's never going to be anyone else. I'm a dumb ass, but I do love her...and I'm trying."

She nodded at me gently. "It'll work out then. I believe that. She loves you too. Just give her some time." She walked off to go find Sam, leaving me there alone.

 I looked around the corner at Chloe, watching her swipe through her phone. My own phone vibrated against my leg. I pulled it out, seeing that Chloe had texted me.

When had she put my number in her phone?

"Hey, I'm going home but I'll talk to you later. Maybe tomorrow. I'll text you okay?"

 I sighed, and texted her back.

"If that's what you need. I'm sorry. I love you Chloe."

 I hit send and then watched her read it. She wiped her eyes and texted something. I opened the text.

 "I love you Colby."

 The knot that was in my chest loosened slightly, and I put my phone away. She didn't know it, but I would still be around her. I couldn't not be near her. I think that it was physically impossible.

Plus, I couldn't leave her unprotected. Not with everyone watching us tonight and with Millie out there. There were vamps here tonight that would probably take advantage of the fact that I cared about Chloe and they knew it. Anything to be able to say that they got one over on Colby Brock.

Would they really risk their lives though? Some of them would be that stupid. I had no doubt.

 I kept my eyes on Chloe and scanned the trees and darkness surrounding us, just to be safe. I couldn't tell if there were any random vamps close by because there were a lot of random vamps in the house and the yard.

Kat came out, followed close by Sam. He nodded at me to follow them as they walked by and headed towards Chloe. I wasn't sure that she wanted me over there but okay.