A Little Calm...

You Win

Cherry Wine - Hozier

After you finished breakfast with Alice, you stopped back home for an hour or two before heading out for a pregnancy shoot. You and Bucky met back at home in the evening, still a little awkward. He's already sitting at the dining room table when you walk in, placing your camera bag on the island.

Bucky
"We have to talk y/n. We need to stop avoiding the subject."

Y/n
"And what subject would that be?"

Bucky
"Y/n... Fury's offer is serious. You haven't said anything about it since he left."

Y/n
"Because I don't know what to say. I don't want this to become my only thing, take over my life. I mean, take you for example. You had plenty of vocations before joining the army, now look at you!"

Bucky
"That's completely different and you know it. I think you're scared."

Y/n
"You're bloody right I'm scared! People die doing what you do Bucky! Every time you step out that door on another mission, I pray to god that you make it home! Just because I support you doesn't mean I endorse it, so why would I willingly join in??"

Bucky takes a breath before standing up and placing a hand on each of your shoulders.

Bucky
"The whole point is that you put yourself last, which I've seen you do a thousand times. You protect the people who can't protect themselves, that's the job. Now you have a new way of doing that."

Still with concern in your eyes as well as tears, you look at Bucky and stroke his chin gently.

Bucky
"When you have the capability of doing good, and you don't because of fear... it eats you up. I don't want to watch you grow to resent yourself, because I know you will."

After a long pause, Bucky pulls you into his chest and you bury your head in his shoulder.

Y/n
"I'll call Fury tomorrow."

Kissing the top of your head, Bucky squeezes you a little tighter for comfort.

Y/n
"I love you."

Bucky
"I love you."