heart beats

simple words [mean a lot]

I'm proud of you.

I'm proud of you

for following your heart

for making effort even when you feel like you can't.

For fighting and stomping and throwing tantrums

and keeping on going despite not knowing

how the fuck to do that.

For doing whatever you need[ed] to.

I'm proud of you

for trying [new things] in spite of failures or fear.

for failing and being there, to watch, experience, learn,

decide whether you want it or not

being brave enough to defy expectations (including your own)

and moving on.

I'm proud of you

for facing your demons

for your curiosity and desire

to love life despite its pain and ugliness,

to see what it's like to

taste ordinariness off a different spoon.

I'm proud of you.

For making the impossible, possible.

For loving something so bad you can't breathe without it.

For walking, walking, walking

every day

forward, backward.

Experience is invaluable. You're making gains ;)

I'm proud of you

for having fun,

for smiling, laughing, crying.

For being silly and stupid.

For going with it. For being open enough to experience joy.

For doing whatever it takes to enjoy life. For carpe diem-ing

making memories

remembering them.

I'm proud of you

for not caring where it doesn't matter

and questioning whether it does or not.

For being unsure yet doing your thing

for experimenting and feeling out.

For being the scientist-artist of your life.

I'm proud of you

for being weird.

For being scared and true.

For not knowing who you are and where you want to be

for valuing yourself enough to not know that

and loving yourself enough to want to find out.

I'm proud of you

for searching, getting lost, finding the way again...

For putting up with it all, for not wanting to deal with the mess

yet going into it nonetheless.

I'm proud of you

for saying no when you need to.

For taking care of that very last ally you can lose:

yourself.

For being one in a few billions.

For wanting better, trying, failing, winning, waiting, doing, wanting, dreaming, daring, wondering ...

For living

and slowly dying.

For aging

and becoming

more and more

who you are.

For making your existence yours.

I'm proud of you

for being boring and ordinary

for being imperfect and relatable

for needing ~7 hours of sleep, some food, and water.

For being real

alive, breathing, mortal, vulnerable.

There's underappreciated beauty in that

in the plastic world we've built.

I'm proud of you.

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#4.6.23

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not too fluffy.

(write what you needed to read).

i prbly forgot a ton of stuff. it'll never be perfect.