Regret Me

For love

"And maybe we got lost in translation, Maybe I asked for too much, but maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up. Running scared, I was there, I remember it ALL TOO WELL," Lizzie scream-sang as we packed up her house.

Ashley, MK and I all stopped what we were doing, put down the boxes and looked over at the younger Olsen sister screaming the lyrics to Taylor Swift's best breakup songs on Spotify as she held a small knife in her hand as a microphone. Her hair was tied into a messy ponytail revealing her bruised face and puffy red eyes from the nights she had recently spent crying. She had clearly lost some weight recently as well and her oversized t-shirt made her look even smaller than she was. Her leggings highlighted her legs which were now half the size, and her knees much more prominent.

"AND YOU CALL ME UP AGAIN JUST TO BREAK ME LIKE A PROMISE," she screamed, her voice raspy.

I stood up and took the knife out of her hand, replacing it with a spoon and letting her continue. I shook my head at the twins to say 'don't fucking interrupt her until the song is over' as we all went back to packing, Lizzie still screaming on the other side of the room.

I'd like to be my old self again,
but I'm still trying to find it.
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own.
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone,
but you keep my old scarf from that very first week.
'Cause it reminds you of innocence
And it smells like me
You can't get rid of it
'Cause you remember it all too well.

Cause there we are again when I loved you so
back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there
I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair, you were there
You remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there
You remember it all
It was rare, I was there
I remember it all too well

And I was never good at telling jokes, but the punch line goes
"I'll get older, but your lovers stay my age"
From when your Brooklyn broke my skin and bones I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?
Just between us, did the love affair maim you, too?
'Cause in this city's barren cold
I still remember the first fall of snow And how it glistened as it fell
I remember it all too well

"Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all. Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all. It was rare, that I was there, I remember it all too well," she finished, breathing heavily and then continuing packing up her bedroom like she didn't just have a whole main character moment in the middle of the room.

"Better?" Ashley asked into the silence at the end of the song.

Lizzie hummed a yes and began taking down her photo frames, freezing when she noticed the shiny ring still sat on her engagement finger. I kept my eyes on her as she slipped it off and put it down on the empty bedside table before continuing what she was doing, wrapping all the glass of the frames in bubble wrap and then putting them in boxes. I was tasked with the job of taking all the books off the shelves in this room and separating them into books that belonged to Robbie and books that belonged to Lizzie. Lizzie's far outweighed Robbie's so my life was made pretty easy. MK and Ashley were emptying the wardrobes. Folding Lizzie's clothes neatly into a box and shoving Robbie's into a black bag as aggressively as they possibly could so that when he took them out, they were all crumbled.

"What do I do with my rings?" Lizzie asked, not stopping what she was doing despite the depth of her question.

"What do you want to do with them?" MK replied.