strawberries | brendon urie

9: "are you drunk?"

brendon was having a party downstairs. i sat in my room, door locked, watching tv and eating snacks. i decided to go downstairs and get some more. i unlocked my door and heard loud music. i tiptoed down the stairs. there were sooo many people. then i spotted zack.
"you okay?" he asked. i nodded.

just getting food

"careful. theres a shit ton of drinking"
i nodded and moved past the people, trying to find the kitchen. the string girls saw me and helped me reach the lucky charms as i was too short to get them.
"you should go back to your room" leah said to me.
"yeah" desiree agreed as i got some doritos out from the cupboard. "its real crowded"
then we heard screaming. we rushed to the garden to see my dad kissing some girl. i smirked and covered my mouth. he noticed me and pulled away.
"uh darling w-what are you doing here?"
i held up the food. "scuse me" he moved past everyone and took me upstairs.
"are you mad?" he asked me.
"no. why would i be?"
"that girl..." he said quietly.
"its your life. you can do what you want" i pointed out.
"i thought you'd get mad at me"
"im a kid. its none of my business"

he put his arm round me and kissed my head. "get some sleep soon. im gonna go back to everyone" he got up and headed out.
"bye" i said.
"bye strawberry" he giggled then closed my door.

i watched another movie and ate away. i was very skinny and small and i don't know how. then my door opened and someone fell inside. i gasped and cowered back.
"jake!" kenny and dan helped him up and pulled him out.
"sorry 'bout that. lock your door" dan said. i nodded and quickly closed it. i slid the lock and took deep breathes.

i decided to go to bed so i put all the food on my desk and went to brush my teeth. after that i put ear plugs in, turned off the lights and went to sleep.

i heard a loud bang and jolted up. the lock clicked and my door opened. i started hyperventilating as memories flooded into my head. it was 5am! my light went on and i calmed down when i saw who it was. brendon!

"hey strawberry" he giggled. he was more jumpy than usual.
"are you drunk?" i asked, my voice shaking.
"mmm...yeah" he started laughing. he stopped then started to make snorting noises. it was quite comical and funny but i was feeling a bit scared.
"come here" he pulled me out of bed and i squealed in terror. he pulled me into a hug. i could smell the beer. "i missed you"
would he hurt me? i tried pulling away but he spun me around. "you know what a miracle you are? i saw you and was li-" he started laughing again.
"stop!" i cried out. he was taken by surprise and tripped a bit.

i pulled him out of my room.
"wait i didn't say goodnight" he started laughing again. i pulled him into his room then ran to mine. i closed the door and started to sob as i locked it again.

i awoke the next morning to brendon trying to open my door.
"yo strawberry! are you okay!?" he kept knocking, trying to open the door. he sounded sober. i unlocked the door and opened it to see brendon showered, dressed and drinking water. he had a joint behind his ear.
"why'd you lock the door? have you been crying?" he asked.
"of course i cried. my dad was drunk and it scared to crap out of me"
"what do you mean i was drunk?"
"last nights party?"
he rubbed his temples. "ah shit. i barely remember a thing. what did i do?"

"you were even weirder than usual"
"was i laughing & snorting?" he grinned.
"yeah"
he laughed. HE LAUGHED.
"its not funny!" i pushed past him and went downstairs.
"what- look. im sorry for scaring you. did i hurt you?" he asks, following me.
"no"
"thank god" he said. "i get why you were scared. and im sorry"
"its okay" i said, putting a strawberry in my mouth.
"how bad was my snorting?" he asked. i rolled my eyes and he bursted out laughing.