strawberries | brendon urie

79: "its just so hard without him"

i had parents permission to go to therapy on my own but jessica took me. she waited in the waiting room and said if i needed her then she'd be there.

molly asked how i was doing and how i was coping without brendon. i was honest and told her it'd been terrible. separation anxiety was the worst and he hadn't called me everyday like he said he would and barely texted me so i got the impression he was trying to get away from me. then i bursted into tears.
"its just so hard without him" i whispered.

she offered advice then let me go as i was really tense. jessica ran and hugged me and took me to get some food, holding me. we sat in mcdonalds quietly. i drank my coke, wiping tears. she sat next me, feeding me chips and cuddling me.
"you're gonna be okay love" she kissed my head gently. i closed my eyes and snuggled up to her.