strawberries | brendon urie

70: "it was an accident"

tw relapse

"so how was your first day?"

i walked into the kitchen, shaking. tears were streaming down my cheeks as justin held me close.
"lots of panic attacks and crying episodes later" he gestured to my face.
"im fine" i stammered even though i was shaking so hard.
"what happened?" brendon held me close. "she's terrified...it was awful man"
"maybe tomorrow it'll be better?"
"no offence but i really disagree. her anxietys really bad" justin said.
"oh god" brendon seemed frustrated.

i got out of his grip and went to my room. i locked the door and cried. it was terrible. i hated it so much.

JUSTINS POV (lol)
my best friend went to her room, trying to hold in the remaining tears. brendon sighed.
li don't know what to do with her" he sighed. he was stressed as fuck.
"i think i may have an idea" i said.
he turned to me. "im listening"
"my dads ex girlfriend - aka my moms best friend - has suffered with anxiety her whole life. she opened up a centre a few months ago for kids with anxiety to go to school. theres after school clubs til 5 o clock. and sarah gets off work at that time. i sometimes go there to help out as i live a few minuets away. she can hang at mine for a little then sarah can pick her up from my place"

"dude you're a fucking genius!" he high fived me. "why didn't you tell us before though?"
"well i didn't know she had spots available"
"no joke but i love you"
"uhh thanks?" i replied awkwardly.
he laughed. "alright, go get your girlfriend" he ruffled my hair.
"gross!"

"dylan? its me!" i knocked on the door. i heard her sobbing uncontrollably. i tried opening the door and surprisingly it opened.
"OH MY GOD!"

dylan was holding a razor blade, open cuts on her wrists. there was blood everywhere.
"it was an accident" she whispered.