strawberries | brendon urie

37: "come hang with us"

day 1 without justin.

i started to cry while eating breakfast. it was a saturday and we weren't hanging out. brendon came over and pulled me into his arms. how long would it be without him? i can barely last a day!

"hey i know its real shitty that you cant be with him for a while. but don't let it destroy you" he wiped my tears away and i nodded. "me and sarah made plans. come hang with us" he said.
"i shouldn't. its a date" i replied.
"she really wants to meet you properly" he told me. "i'll even ask her"
"okay. just let me get dressed"
"yeah of course"

i went upstairs and cleaned myself up. i got ready into blue jeans which i rolled up a little because im gay as crap, a pink sweater and short black heeled boots. i then brushed my hair and put on some perfume. we drove into town and went to some Italian place. sarah was waiting outside. she smiled when she saw us. her and brendon KISSED IN FRONT OF ME! brendon looked so happy. i instantly felt better.

"i decided to bring dylan" he said.
"about time" she replied. brendon laughed and she did too. we went inside and brendon went to order. sarah wanted to get to know me more.
"so...are you okay with me dating your dad?" she asked nervously. my anxiety took over. i nodded shyly.
"im glad. you seem awesome" she was so sweet. "type about yourself"

well...i love brendon with all my heart and i love that u make him happy. im obsessed with ariana grande & bring me the horizon. im gay and pRoud. idk what else to add.

"wait. i make him happy?" she asked.
VERY happy i added.
"well im glad. he's so sweet"
he is, i love him so much :')
"you two must be really close"
we are

brendon came back.
"are you trying to scare her off?" he joked to me. sarah laughed while i smiled. i let them talk while i went on instagram. i did another little q&a.

are you okay?
yEs

have you ever kissed a girl?
no :(

i want to come out but idk how
ask for a pride flag for ur birthday maybe. or make a cake??

how did you come out?
i was depressed as fuck and brendon was really worried and just tried talking to me. then i jus said girls and started crying like a baby.

ur a gay legend
aw thanks

i think your faking it
didn't ask but ok

what are you doing?
waiting for my food

is brendon with you?
yEs

how much do you love brendon?
too much to even explain :')

can i be your girlfriend?
yes u may

i put my phone away as my food came.
i had a small pizza while brendon and sarah had spaghetti. i watched as they talked to each other, love in their eyes ans my heart melted. i'd never seen brendon more happy.

brendon turned to me.
"you good?" he asked. i nodded, chewing my pizza and smiling.
"why are you smiling?" he teased. i shook my head and carried on eating. "
"shes happy that you're happy" sarah said. i high fived her.
"thats adorable" he ruffled my hair and grinned.

we headed out after we finished and went to get some dessert. brendon let sarah choose so she chose just to get some ice cream. we went into the parlour next door. brendon went to order while sarah went to the bathroom.

i looked around and my heart stopped. i spotted a girl sitting on the other side of the room eating ice cream. she was wearing a black tank top, denim shorts, black converse and a bandana. and she was beautiful. she has long blonde hair which was brown at the end and hazel eyes. she noticed me staring and smiled. i looked away quickly, trying not to seem creepy.

brendon noticed me. he got his phone out.

brendon💞: I SAW YOU CHECKING THAT GIRL OUT

me: was it that obvious!?

brendon💞: Yes. Go over to her!

me: I CANT TALK

brendon💞: Type something out?

me: NO ITS WEIRD

brendon💞: Shes walking ove so Owon't come back. Good luck.

she's walking over? i looked up to see that she was! crap. i couldn't talk - after the whole bad fan experience my anxiety became worse. my progress of saying a few words had gone out of the window.

"hey" she sat next to me and smiled. "i saw you walk in here with your mom and dad. you're really pretty" she said.
i smiled. "you shy?" she asked. i pointed to my throat. "are you a mute?" i nodded. "ah. well i hope this isn't weird but i could see those rolled up jeans from a mile away" she giggled. i did too. "im the same" we fist bumped.

"could i maybe get your number? if thats not weird" she asked. i nodded eagerly. we swapped phones and typed away. "i'll text you soon. see you around" she gave me a little side hug and left.

brendon sat down next to me. "so...what happened?" he asked, grinning.
"i got her number!" i squealed
"no way! what'd she say?"
"she thinks sarahs my mom. and she figured out i was gay and a mute and she called me pretty" i gushed.
"whats her name?" i unlocked my phone and looked at the contact.

Sierra🏳️‍🌈