Fate's Identity

Chapter 78

My eyes flutter open in complete darkness. All I can see was a small stream of light coming through the door. I turn to the side and read the alarm clock: 8:30. I groan and moan, seeing it only in the afternoon. In honesty, I did not enjoy the time zone changes.

I remove the sheets off of me and carefully step onto the ground. I walk around Lauren and Dinah, who slept on an air mattress in my room. I walk to the door and grab the knob. I turn it and slowly pull the door back.

I cringe at the bright light and shield my eyes a little. I step out of the room and see Selena sitting in the living room, watching tv. I walk over and take a seat next to her.

"Hi," she greets me, taking her eyes off of the screen for a second. "What are you doing up?"

"I just feel like moving around a little," I said. "I've been feeling a little down lately,"

"Does this per chance happened to do with what you did in Bradford? More specifically, who met in Bradford?" She questions, and I knew she was talking about Liam.

"No... maybe... I don't know," I answer. "I just know that I've been feeling down lately, and I've had a couple of hard times with breathing. But nothing major. It's normal when someone is emotional, and they can't really feel their breath."

Selena nods her head and wraps her hand around my neck. She pulls me in for a hug, and I rest my head on her chest. "I missed you, Ally," she says.

"Me too," I said. "I miss having my big sister around."

"Ally, why don't you tell me your problems? Maybe that will help you release some stress and make you feel better," she suggested, but I shrug.

"I don't know," I said. "I'm too emotional right now to think."

"Then let it all out," she says. "I'm here for the tears and to listen."

I lift my head and face her. She gives me an assuring look, and I nod my head. I breathe steadily and begin suppressing my negative emotions. "Okay, it began when I first met Liam at the opening ceremony..." I explain what had happened that night to when I found out I was co-starring with him in the movie. At first, I felt uncomfortable. I haven't seen him for half a year, and he managed to steal my heart again. I talked about our relationship evolving into something a little more, but I didn't know if I was misreading the signs. However, after I found about Lennon, I had to draw the line somewhere.

"That's terrible," Selena comments. "Whoever this Lennon chick is has no right to treat like that just for a boy. I'm telling you, love changes people for the better or for the worst. In her case, the worst."

"And in my case, the worst too," I said.

Selena shakes her head, denying it. "No, you're changing for the better. You did it. You were able to let go of Liam to that snob Lennon. Now, you can focus on the rest of the semester and your career."

"Yes, I was able to let him go, but a part of me misses him so much," I said.

"Your heart is trying to heal from the wounds. In time, it won't hurt as much as it does now," she assures. And I nod my head. If it was meant to be like this, then it will be like this. "Is that all?"

Zayn and Harry pop inside my head, and a void grows in my stomach. "Um, there's something else. It deals with Dinah and Camila. During our trip, Dinah met a guy, and she went head over heels for him. However, he hid the truth from her. He didn't tell her that he had a child and was a widow. And he he didn't tell her where he worked." I begin to breathe harder. "During the closing ceremony, he admitted to her the things he hid, and now, she is heartbroken and mad at me because before that, she saw him and me together, but it wasn't my fault." I catch my breath.

Selena places her hand on my shoulder and taps her fingers, saying, "Hey, Hey. Deep breath. Deep breath." I nod my head and slowly regain my normal breathing. "Okay, now," Selena says. "What about Zayn?"

I hold onto Selena's hands and squeeze them tight. "Oh, boy," I mumble. A lump in my throat formed, and tears well up in my eyes. "Camila, I pity her and feel for her. And she didn't even know."

"What? What? What happened?" Selena asks.

I look at her, straight in the eyes, and answer, "All these months of waiting, she thought he didn't love her. However, he did. He loved her and missed her so much to the point where he consumed alcohol and... and..."

Selena pulls her hands back and places them in my shoulder, shaking me. "Ally, what happened to Zayn?" Her eyes widen, and she grew fearful.

"H-he's gone," I blurt. I cover my mouth and push tears back. I clench my fist and tighten it. Selena's eyes widen, but she quickly recovers and pulls me in another embrace.

"N-no, it's okay," she says. "Camila will understand. It might be hard to take at first, and she will be depressed, but she will learn to move on, and by then, she can finally leave her past and focus on her future."

I nod my head and seal my mouth shut. Selena brushes my hair and comments, "Oh, sweet lord, please protect the girls from their heartbreak."

After a few moments, I lift my head, and she puts on a smile. "How do you feel?"

I take a moment and focus on my stress. I chuckle, feeling more relaxed than before, "I feel a whole lot better, actually."

She replies, "Good. You want some hot chocolate?"

I smile. "I wouldn't mind some," I answer.

"I'll go make some," she says. She stands up and walks into the kitchen.

I stand up from the couch and head into a room to grab a blanket. I slowly tiptoed around Lauren's and Dinah's body and pull the puffy blanket off the bed. I shuffle the blanket in ball in my arms and feel something dropping on my feet. I crease my brow and lower my eyes. Next to my feet, I see the letter Liam had written me.

I swallowed hard and bent down. I pick it up and trace my finger over his name even though I can barely see it. For a moment, I contemplated whether I should throw this away or not. However, I was curious to read it myself, and maybe, whatever is in it might help me move on.

I walk over to the table and turn on the lamp. I shine the light on the letter, and I tore the flap open. I pull out the folded letter and unravel it. I sit down on the chair and admire his sloppy writing. I smile a little and begin to reading.

Dear my sweet Allyson, I don't know how else to tell you. You were angry, and I didn't want to mess with that. But at the same time, I couldn't let you go. I'm sorry your experience has become a mix of emotions. I don't know how much you know, but I have to tell you something. I am coming. I am coming back to you. I just ask that you please wait for me. Please.

The rest of the letter seemed to be erased, but it was enough to make me smile. I guess, I'd be a fool to go back to him, but I'll always go back to him. I let out a breath of relief and begin to feel the air getting thin. I exhale and inhale deeply as I press my hand against my left shoulder, feeling it aching. My eyes begin to heavy, but I shake myself.

I scoot the chair back and prop my hands against the edge of the table. I lift myself up from the seat. I turn my body to the door and tremble in my steps as I take steps towards it. I reach my hand out for the knob and feel my eyes beginning to shut. An immense sting struck me in the chest, and I yelp.

What was going on?

I was scared. Frightened. My entire body shook. I tried to put an end to it, but I couldn't. "Selena!" I shouted. I wheeze the air as my legs gave out. I drop to my knees and held my burning chest. "Selena!" I cry once more. My head ached terribly, and I lean to the right. I prop my arm against the floor, but I was too weak to hold myself. My body collapsed on the floor, and I hear the door swinging open.

"Ally!" I hear inaudibly Selena shouting.

And that was the last thing I heard.