Fate's Identity

Chapter 106

By the next morning, he disappeared before I woke up, just like Liam had. I had no clue where the girls were, but I knew they were somewhere just outside of my door and around the house.

I laid against the headboard for the next twenty-four hours, and each hour, I grew more impatient. My anger builds up as I wait for something. I didn't know what it was, but it had to be something. Every time the girls walk in, I always expected something else. But it was nice to see them. However, I kept my hopes high that that something come, but for the next days. I was let down by disappointment.

I stopped using my voice and decided to listen to the world around me, like what I should've done in the first place. He was always filled with disappointment, and nothing can change that. How did I get myself attach to his selfishness?

I wish my mom was here to help me. I don't know how to deal with this pain and inner rage that's been coming out of me. I don't know why I am like this. I don't want to be like this. My last days were supposed to be calm and peaceful. But everyday just grows worse for me.

I roll over to the side and stare blankly at the wall. Nothing occupies my mind except the sounds around me. Everything was quiet except the voices of Dinah and Lauren bickering outside my door. And their subject, especially, made me furious.

"She does not need him," Lauren says.

Dinah rebuttals, "Yes, she does. She needs him the most."

"Dinah, I thought you were on my side," Lauren says. "Ally does not need to see him again. She made it very clear that she does not want to see him nor hear us mutter his name. She's been dead silent in the past couple of days. She doesn't want anybody."

"Lauren, I know you mean well, but maybe her everlasting love can heal her rage," Dinah said.

Lauren chuckles at those words. I would laugh too if I wasn't too sore. "Everlasting?" She questions. "This is no fucking fairytale. There is no such thing as 'true love' or 'everlasting love'. And he was the reason why she's like this."

"Well, I'm going to ask her, and there's nothing that you can do or say that will stop me from doing it," Dinah declares. I hear a thud, and then the door swings wide open.

I roll over and see Lauren pulling on Dinah's wrist. Their eyes lock on mine, and Dinah sighs heavily, preparing her words to me. "Ally—" she begins.

"Tell her that you don't want to see him," Lauren cuts her off.

Dinah darts her eyes on Lauren and shakes her head in disappointment. She turns her attention back on me and proceeds, "Ally, I think you should see him because he deserves one last chance. And even if you don't think so, you need to tell him goodbye. I don't want you to have unfinished business."

I shift my eyes back and forth at both of them and reply, "Dinah, I don't want to see him. I would rather die than see him again."

Dinah's eyes widen, astounded. "Ally, you are not yourself. You know very well that you are not. You're hurt. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. You don't mean what you say."

"Actually, I do. What I stated is true," I remark. "I don't want to see him. I hate him. Dinah, you would to. You want to get into my business? How about you talk to Harry first before you try to talk to me?" Dinah's eyes widen once more, and I've never felt more relieved than to tell her this.

"Ally," Lauren stares at me, telling me I have push the limit but I thought otherwise.

"Lauren, what about you?" I question. "What about the nonsense you bring up about Louis? I get it that he hurt you, and I feel for you. But seriously...your lips say you hate him, but your heart says something else."