Fate's Identity

Chapter 63

The cold chilly wind blows on my skin as I hold onto my elbows. The night sky was up along with its beautiful stars and shining moon. Just looking up at the moon gives me a closer connection to him. Our very first date, we laid on the grass and watched the stars and the moon. My heart races for that moment to occur once more.

But then there's Ricky, and I shouldn't really be thinking about Liam when I am with him but I had the right to. I sense that he liked me romantically since the moment he asked me out for coffee the first time.

My stomach grew a pit. And I knew I was feeling guilty. Not because I was thinking about Liam, but because I was hanging out with Ricky. I may not know what Liam is doing or why he hasn't responded back to my texts or my calls, but I knew that I had to stay loyal to him. I wasn't sure if there was any spark left of him in my heart. Maybe I am just thinking this because I am walking beside Ricky on the sidewalk. Or maybe it was true. Two months was probably what it took for me to get over him.

I didn't know exactly what I wanted. All I know is that I am walking with Ricky while I see flashes of Liam in my head. Dinah's words about Zayn and Camila affected me as I am in a similar position. I am a hundred percent sure I know Liam, and he would never leave me hanging.

I raise my head and try to focus on Ricky and his features. I narrow it down to his cheeks, the shape of his nose and lips, his smile, and his eyebrows. Each element gave him his stunning facial look.

As he spoke, I couldn't help but bring Liam's face back in. In seconds, Ricky's features turns back into Liam's, and I was blown away at how much he looked like Liam.

Could it be real? Liam should be here. I want him here.

I shake my head, ridding myself of those thoughts.

"Ally?!" I snapped back into reality and see Ricky back as himself. "Did you hear what I said?"

I shake my head. "I'm sorry. Can you repeat?"

He stops in his tracks, and we face one another. "I ask if you feel the same way about me," he says. "I know we only met each other a couple of weeks ago and that we are cast mates, but I believe we can make it work."

I close my eyes, pacing myself before I bring the subject back up. "Ricky, I am engage. I can't feel the same way."

"You can," he corrects me, "but you don't want to. Are you still going on about your fiancé excuse?"

I shake my head. "No, I'm being serious. I do have one," I said. "He just isn't here. He wasn't able to come."

"For weeks that we've been spending together, you never mentioned that you had somebody," he says. "Why are you suddenly bringing him up?"

"Because you asked me to go on a date," I said. "I had the right to not inform you. I'm just too personal about this."

"He sounds like he doesn't even care," he remarks, "He didn't even show up to the premiere."

I swallow and reply, "He is busy."

"That's not a good excuse," Ricky says. "He should be here supporting you. He shouldn't be skipping out because he says that he is busy. I'm sure you risk things for him, but he's not paying you the same."

"He's done a lot more than you think," I said.

"Like what?" He flares his nostrils.

I sigh heavily, disappointed. He's just like another one of them. Another Niall and Simon. They don't even know Liam, yet they still go off on what they are given. "Ricky, I want to go home now." I try to walk pass him, but he grabs my wrist and grasps it tightly. I yelp a little.