Betrayed

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"Okay........before I begin. I just want you to know that everything I say is the complete honest truth on how I feel about you and how it got to this point......I know that sounds weird coming from me but its the truth.......I've hid these feelings for so long that it became easy for me until recently.....I....became softer again, I-I don't know what came over me. I'll never forgive myself for everything that I've done to you-"
"Stop." I rose my hand up with my eyes glued to the floor. She's was talking so fast I couldn't even catch up on some of her words.
"Why do you have my name tattooed on your arm?" I pointed to her arm that was covered with a long sleeve. Oh so she thought covering it up was gonna help this......yeah, not really.
"Umm.." She mumbled, making me roll my eyes and scoff inside my head.

"Um?" I rose an eyebrow at her.

"Because I care about you, okay?" She shrugged her shoulders. Yeah sure you do. "I wouldn't just get a permanent mark of someone's name for no reason."
"Oh, so you care about me now?"
"Since when?" I chuckled, shaking my head lightly.

"Since....." She trailed her eyes to my stomach, making me glance down at my stomach as well.....

"I found out you were pregnant.........and that was months after you left........I had no idea that's why they kicked you out....They told me you ran away from home and that I wasn't gonna ever see you again and that's what made me mad.....I thought you just left randomly.............growing up, I always had this little tiny liking for you. I don't know, I guess I liked the way you were and still are and the way you handled things........I-I know I was too young to be feeling that way in the first place but they were there though. As years went by, my crush for you got bigger and I became good at hiding it. I kept denying the fact that I had those feelings for you even when I didn't know we weren't related. I was disgusted with myself at the time because I felt like it was totally wrong. But months after you left, I discovered that we we didn't share the same blood and it took some relief off of me and I started to feel somewhat okay but I still was mad that you were gone. Even when you were gone for all those years, my feelings for you stayed..."

"I had no choice but to leave and you know that." My voice spoke, not taking my eyes off her.
"But at that time, I didn't. I promise you I had no idea they made you leave until I overheard them talking one night......after that I went in my room and silently cried that whole night. Leah, at that moment I had removed all of the things we've said or done to each other when we were younger....."

My face suddenly softened as I looked at her when she said that she cried...
"I couldn't even function properly. I would go to school and remain quiet that whole day. My parents didn't even care or even bothered to see what the fuck was wrong with me......Many people at my school would come up to me throughout the day and ask what's wrong. And I would shake my head and tell them nothing, because I didn't want them to know that I had a stupid big crush on someone that's almost 10 years older than me." Her voice began to break and for some odd reason, my face started to show sympathy. I suddenly touched my eyes to prevent a tear drop to fall. She doesn't deserve any of my tears.
"I'm sorry to hear that..." I whispered, clearing my throat shortly after because it was cracking.
Damn you emotions...
"But, I still don't see why I should be standing here feeling sorry for you." I shrugged while tilting my head. Oh, I'm gonna start crying any second now. "I'm not asking you to feel sorry for me.....I'm asking for you to-"
"Asking for me to do what?" I rose my eyebrows as I crossed my arms again.
"Forgive you for all the things you've done to hurt me and two people I love?!" My voice rose, close to just letting the tears fall. They were threatening to.
"The day I got Lexi back you practically forced yourself on me!" I went closer towards her with my fists slightly balled.
"I know, I lost it that day......I am truly sorry for that. If I could rewind back in time to prevent myself from doing that I would. Locking those feelings for all those years broke and destroyed me."
"And not having my daughter insight for 3 freaking years broke and destroyed me." I pointed towards myself.

I shook my head at her as I took a glance at myself in the mirror, realizing I was now crying.
"Just-" I put my hand up as I began to walk pass her to the door when she suddenly grabbed my arm to prevent me from opening the door and backed me up slightly against the door.

"Wait." She whispered while looking at me.
"No, move out of my way so I can go back downstairs so no one can get the wrong idea on what's happening in this bathroom." I warned her in the eyes.

I tried to push her out of the way but she grabbed both of my arms and pinned them above my head to prevent me from doing so.
Getting angry that I was being held against my will, I tried to knee her in her stomach but she pressed herself against me to stop them from moving. I can't believe she's stronger than me now. I need to head back to the gym as soon as possible.
"Can you stop? I won't hurt you okay? I just need to say something to you that I've been wanting to tell you for a long time but I couldn't.."
"I don't want to hear shit else coming from your damn mouth, now let me go before I scream and have everyone come up here and see what's going on. Nothing you say will make me think different of you."
"No, I refuse to let you go-"
"Why?!" I cut her off, finally looking her dead in the eyes.
"What is your point in this? For me to like you back? Is that what this is? I thought I told you before that I'll never...ever catch feelings for-"

I was suddenly cut off when she brought her face towards mine and pressed her lips on mine, silencing me instantly.
I froze into place as our lips remained connected until after about 5 seconds before she pulled back.....

"What I've wanted to tell you is that......"

"I love you.......and I.......always will......." She whispered, making my mouth open slightly in shock.

There goes the three words...

She loved me? All this time??
"Y-you what?" The words barely came out as a whisper.

"I said I love you........and I always will......" She repeated as we continued to stare at each other.

I kept staring at her until I came up with the right words to say.......
"If you love me................why hurt me then?" I whispered, making her turn her eyes towards the floor.

She didn't respond right away as she kept her eyes glued to the floor, her eyes were tearing up again as the silence remained between us.

"I-I don't know...." She mumbled...