Betrayed

Should I?

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Ever since the lunch incident, I've been quiet to myself. I wanted to fight back like I usually do and show that I was still the Audrey who once didn't give a fuck about what anyone said about me. That Audrey was happy and free. Although she broke the rules, got high a couple of times and got drunk. She was still happy overall. There wasn't any worrying about this or worrying about that.......back then when nothing was happening to me that seemed to ruin my life by every day, every hour, every minute, every second....

"You've barely said anything at all since you've set foot in this car. Something happened at school?" Leah questioned as we pulled infront of Lexi's school.
Leah wasn't allowing Lexi to ride the bus anymore and I honestly don't blame her. If someone was coming after me and my loved ones, I'd do anything I could to prevent that from happening.

"Nothing." I shook my head and glanced out the window as many students came out the building with relief on their faces.
Of course I was lying. I didn't know how to react to this situation. Someone other than the two people I know of so far that knew about my pregnancy and me also getting abortion knows about this....I know Mia put her up to this. She had to. She couldn't come back and do it herself because she knows I'll blow her cover.
But recently, I've been thinking that I might just do that. After what she's done to me? Why not? You hurt me, I hurt you back. Twice as hard.

"You sure? We can talk about it, you know." She insisted but I only shook my head once again. I wasn't sure how to tell her about this, considering the fact that I never even once told her that I had gotten pregnant. I didn't forget about it or anything, it's just that I thought that iI would never have to speak of this ever again.......but I guess they were right about all things must come to the light eventually.
"Yeah...I'm sure." I muttered, still blowing the opportunity of telling her. If I don't tell her now, Ava might even up sending her the photo, which by the way will make things hella worse. Hey, she probably sent it in the mail just be even more of a petty bitch.

On the corner of my eye, I saw her look up from her phone to stare at me for a few seconds before she looked back down. She probably wasn't buying it because she knew when I was lying about things like this, but she didn't say anything after that. I felt somewhat relief but I wanted to tell her so that I could this off my chest. She's my sister and she had a right to know......but why am I having so much trouble getting it out of my mouth? I mean I say everything else I know I'm not supposed to? What's the problem now?

Shaking my head slightly from not finding the answer, I exhaled silently and deeply before sitting up straight. Okay, I can do this..
"Leah?" I called her name while staring down at my folded hands. Soon I'm sure one of my legs were gonna start shaking. A common thing whenever I get too nervous about something.
"Yes?" She replied in her usual caring voice, putting her phone in the slot next to the cup holders since it was currently charging...

I didn't have the courage to look at her so I kept my eyes glued to my hands.
"There's something you should know and I-"

"Hey guys!" The door behind me opened to Lexi hopping in.

Me and Leah both turned around at the exact same time, glaring at the smiling Lexi.
"Heyy....what has you in such a good mood?" Leah asked her after looking at me with concern. I'm sure she's gonna bring this up later on this evening. It's gonna be in her mind until then.
"This boy...I have a small crush on just asked if I can go to the arcade with him tonight.......can I?" Lexi asked with such pleading. In her eyes, was the looks of it is that she really wanted Leah to say yes but according to what's been happening, the answer is gonna be-
"Sure." She answered her, making me snap my head towards her. What? How can she let her go? Too many things have been happening lately.