Betrayed

You.

She looked out the window to avoid eye contact as she began to speak.
"The reason.....why I helped Audrey is because I suddenly decided to take a step back and observe what's been going around me lately and I've realized that I've hurt a lot of people. I chose.....to let my parents convince me into helping them make certain people's lives a living hell, including you and Audrey.......At first, I didn't want to do it because it was wrong and I told them a few years ago when I was just about to finish high school that I wanted no part of whatever they had going on....I told them to keep me out of it, but......."
She starting shaking her head and cleared her throat because her voice was cracking.
"They threatened to abandon me if I chose not to help out. They told me that if I refused to do what they asked, they were gonna do horrible things to me........the things....that they pointed out frightened me.........they didn't care or how their harmful words affected me. They never care about the consequences in their actions, they just do it..........and so with that I agreed....."

"Over time of doing it so much, it became a job for me.......I would go to college for a few hours and then I would come home and do whatever they asked without questions, rather it was dangerous or not....I was practically forced to do it..........My point is....that I...never wanted to hurt you guys........and I know...you're thinking that I'm lying just to get you to believe me but...I'm not.....I-I just had no choice, if I didn't do what they asked.....they were gonna kill me and..."

She suddenly started tearing up while she was driving, making me look up at her for real....This Taylor that she's showing me now has never been seen until now.................could she be telling the truth? Maybe? I don't know at this moment.

She sniffed a few times and wiped her eyes with her jacket sleeve, still avoiding eye contact with me. I sat up and began to speak before she continued.
"You're hurting.........You're hurting because you finally feel the pain and the guilt that's been building layers on top of layers and on top of layers.....and it's finally caught up to you, and you can't stand it. You can't bare to live with so much guilt on your shoulders for the rest of your life....You're trying to make it easier for yourself by figuring out a way to forgive yourself for everything you have done..........but that still doesn't explains why you did what you did.....I mean you always gave us a clear hint that you disliked us as much as your parents. Especially me." I pointed to myself.

"All the things you've said and did in the past to me isn't something I'm just gonna let go later on in my life and forget. I'll never forget the way you treated me. And still are if that's the case. You don't care at all. So I don't know if I should believe what you're saying is the truth......and the fact that you helped send my daughter away for three years and also made sure that I couldn't see my own sister? W-What kind of person does that?" I shrugged as we got onto the highway at last. This was definitely a long ride.....or was I just being impatient right now?
"Not all of the things that happened to Me and Audrey is completely their fault. You play a big role in it just as much as them.......still til' this day, I will never know what it's like to have a normal childhood. Damn, I cant even recall some of it if you asked me......I missed out on of a bunch of things growing up because guess who had to stay at home and watch your ass all the goddamn time.....I was treated like shit in that house and you were one of the causes......So even back then you were making my life as hard as it is now."
"That's because you were always hostile with me. Way before everything started happening. You always shutted me out in any possible way you could. Everytime you got to hang out with your little friends and have fun, I would tag along and you would act like I wasn't there and ignore the shit out of me." She finally backfired as we switched lanes back and forth.
"No I didn't." I denied, not remembering anything she recalled.
"Yeah you did. You always did it and you're only denying it right now because you know it's the truth." She said, making me look at her in an 'awe oh really' way. 
"Or maybe I'm denying it because I don't remember." I corrected her, as I looked down at my lap.

Did I really do that to her? Or was she making up a lie once again? Either way it goes, that still doesn't make any excuse for what she made us go through all just because her parents forced her to do it. I call bullshit.
"Of course you don't remember." She mumbled under her breath, making look at her.
"And what's that supposed to mean?"
I suddenly began to snap at her, I was getting fed up with this.

"What the hell does this have to do with why you didn't just let my sister die? You could've helped Mia finish her off wherever you guys had her kidnapped. You could've done anything you wanted. But no. You chose to save her life.........after all the shit you done to her physically and mentally? Why? Just fucking why?"
"What was the reason Taylor?!-" shouted, making her look the other way.

"You, okay?!" She rose her voice, making me look at her. "
"Me?" I pointed to my chest as I replied.What the hell do I have to do with it?" I asked, highly confused.

She didn't say anything as we got off the highway and stopped at another freaking red light. "Taylor." My voice calmed down just a bit as she rubbed her eyes and shook her head.
She still didn't respond as she took off her jacket, exposing something on her arm that I couldn't make out until she brought it closer towards my direction.

My mouth suddenly hang open just a little as I read the cursive bold black letters that read my name on the inside of her arm. It was my turn to become silent as I remained shocked, not daring to look at her in the eyes at the moment. "I chose to help her because of you....." She whispered, letting me still hear her words even though my mind was still completely focused on the tattoo as I kept staring at it.