I sat alone in the library trying to decide what to do. I know I messed up by going back to Jamal without speaking to Tyree properly but he's been hiding things from me too. And I know I can't be mad at Jamal for what he did because the only reason he did it is because I was playing around with the both of them. I told my brother to meet me in less than an hour at the café so I could tell him what was happening cause there's no way I'm moving. I know he's mad at me for everything that's happening so if I reassure him that the dramas over he should be okay right?
Jamal- call me back Marni.
I sighed out looking at Jamal's text. I'm not mad at him I've just been trying to distance myself from him until I figure out what to do. I don't want to keep dragging him into my drama with Tyree but I know I can't talk to Tyree now cause he's still mad at me from the picture Jamal posted of me a couple of days ago. I called Jamal back to see what he wanted.
Me: hi
Jamal: where are you?
Me: library
Jamal: I'm around the corner, I'm coming
Me: no Jamal. I'm trying to concentrate.
Jamal: we need to talk.
Me: please just give me time.
Jamal: I love you.
Me: I'm going to talk to Jeremiah soon.
Jamal: and then what's going to happen?
Me: I don't know.
Jamal: you chose me.
Me: everything's different now.
Jamal: you can't keep playing with my feelings Imarni.
Me: can we talk about this another time. I really need to do my work.
I put my head in my hands sighing out since he hung up.
Jamal: how are you doing work without your laptop?
I looked up at him biting my bottom lip. Didn't I tell him not to come here?
Me: Jamal I really don-
Jamal: I'm not here to get at you. I just wanna let you know that I'm good with whatever you decide to do.
Me: thank you.
He came and sat beside me putting his hands on my thighs.
Jamal: I know I messed up.
Me: I know why you did it.
Jamal: but I knew what would happen and I still did it.
Me: can we not talk about this right now?
Jamal: you can't just keep brushing this shit off.
Me: I just don't want to talk about it with you.
Jamal: the other day you chose me, now you don't even want to talk to me?
Me: i don't know what I want okay.
I eventually had enough and shouted at him making everyone in the library turn to look at us. We had a death staring match until I stood up to leave. I needed to go to the café to meet my brother.
Marcus: Imarni.
I spub around as Marcus called me just as I was about to sit down. I sat opposite him since he was alone.
Me: hi.
Marcus: are you okay?
Me: yeah you?
Marcus: yhyh. What happened to you on Friday? You told me you would come.
Me: shit, I completely forgot. Im sorry something came up.
Marcus: it's cool I get the message.
Me: no, I'm not lying. I honestly couldn't come. Next time I'll be there I promise.
Marcus: next time is this Friday?
Me: you're doing it again?
Marcus: yeah. It was a good vibe last time.
Me: cool I'll be there I promise.
Marcus: if you're not then I know why.
Me: I told you we're good with each other. If I didn't like you I would tell you.
Marcus: true.
Me: anyways I gotta go cause my brother's coming to meet me.
Marcus: alright. See you Friday.
I smiled at him going to the counter to order a drink. I guess Jada isn't at work today cause some guy was taking the orders.
*
Jeremiah: have you found another place to stay?
Me: hello to you too.
Jeremiah: Imarni, I'm not here to joke around with you. You might think it's funny fucking around with people's mind and messing with people when you're supposed to be here to focus on your education but I don't.
I sat back in my seat taking in what my brother was saying. I know this is gonna be a long lecture.
Me: fine I'm sorry. I don't want to move apartments because it's not going to make a difference. All of my classes are still with Jamal and I have no reason not to talk to him. Tyree knew about us and he's talking to somebody else too. You can't blame me for doing the same thing he's doing just because he wants to get mad at me for it.
Jeremiah: Ty is my best friend, he has been all my life and you know this. I told the both of you not to get together cause it's going to get fucked up and you did it anyway. Now that you've broken up the drama is still there and I'm tired of it. I don't wanna keep arguing with him because of you so you need to talk it out with him to end whatever the fuck you two have going on.
Me: no matter how much we talk it out it always ends up the same. We always agree to be friends then end up arguing about it in the end.
Jeremiah: na fuck friends. I don't want you two talking if it's not necessary.
Me: and you think that's possible?
Jeremiah: it's needs to be.
