Me: what?
Jamal: if you wanted to be with Tyree you would have got with him before uni and I wouldn't even of had a chance to get with you.
Me: Jamal don't tell me about myself.
Jamal: so why have you not got back with him then? You were giving me the silent treatment and I know he wants you back so why haven't you got back together? You can't act like this is about me.
Me: why don't you mind your own business.
Jamal: you know I'm right.
Me: I don't want to be in a relationship. This has nothing to do with you or Tyree.
Jamal: is it Corey?
Me: you're sounding real bitter right now.
Jamal: I don't care Imarni I'm done hiding my feelings. We're not getting back together so I don't care anymore.
Me: you know what. I'm happy I'm moving so I won't have to deal with this bullshit anymore.
Jamal: maybe you're the problem.
Everything he's saying is actually starting to hurt and I know he knows this yet he's still doing it. I slowly walked over to his dresser taking up everything one by one and throwing it at him. He eventually stood up pulling me over to the corner of his room trapping me so I couldn't grab anything else.
Me: why do you hate me so much? What did I do to you?
Jamal: I told you I love you and you stopped talking to me over some bullshit and got back with your ex right Infront of my face. I don't deserve this.
Me: so you think me walking in on your fucking Rhiannon was bullshit? Did you not think that would affect me?
Jamal: you pushed me away. What did you expect me to do?
Me: stop trying to play the victim. You knew what you were doing.
Jamal: I have needs.
Me: so why haven't you got with her again?
Jamal: it didn't work out.
Me: bullshit. You knew what you were doing in the first place because you wanted me to feel hurt even though you don't even like her.
I tried to push him off so I could leave but he wouldn't budge so I was just stuck in the corner of his room.
Jamal: I'm sorry I did that.
Me: no Jamal. I don't need your apology.
Jamal: I know how it feels because my ex did it to me. I know I fucked up and ive told you this already.
I sighed out biting my bottom lip. It's so annoying how he changes so quickly from angry to apologetic because I don't know how to react to it. Especially when I know we'll be arguing again soon enough.
Jamal: you know you don't need to go to the extreme of moving out. We can make this work.
Me: it's too late.
Jamal: you said you don't have anywhere yet?
Me: I'm leaving in the next 2 months. I have to.
**
SATURDAY:
Corey: I heard you're looking for a new place?
Me: where did you hear that from?
Romeo: me.
I rolled my eyes thinking about the whole situation.
Me: if I didn't live so far away from uni I would just move back home. This whole thing is a mess.
Romeo: why? Did your roommates not take the news well?
Me: nope.
Corey: you know the reason why you want to move so don't let anybody make you feel bad about it.
Me: demari wasn't too bad, it's just Jamal.
Romeo: it's not like you won't see them again.
Me: right. And I've gotta go to his mum's birthday dinner in a few hours.
Corey: I thought you two broke up?
Me: we did but his mum doesn't know so she invited me and I don't want to be rude.
Romeo: you're just asking for drama.
Me: I know. I can't help it.
Corey: don't go.
Me: I've already said I'm going.
Corey: so?
Me: no Corey I'm not like you. I have to go to be polite.
Corey: so when is he going to tell his own mom that you're not together anymore?
Me: I don't know. But he knows this is the last time I'm doing this.
Corey: do you know how crazy you sound?
Me: what do you expect my to do? Not turn up & leave him in the deep end so he has to tell her on her own birthday?
Corey: yes, he can't blame you for that because he's had enough time.
Me: Romeo talk to your friend please.
Romeo: he's right. You shouldn't entertain the lie.
**
Jamal: you look good.
Me: thank you, so do you.
I bit my lip as he stood in my room doorway clenching his jaw.
Me: do you think this is a good idea?
Jamal: I thought it was but now I'm not too sure.
Me: your little sister messaged me earlier on Instagram to say she can't wait to see me.
He chuckled shaking his head.
Jamal: this is definitely not a good idea.
Me: I'll stay.
Jamal: no. I still want you with me.
Me: why don't you want to tell your mum the truth?
Jamal: because she's so happy that I settled down & she saw that I was happy but since we broke up I just haven't found the right time to tell her. I'll tell her tonight though.
Me: on her birthday?
Jamal: I'll just tell her we've decided to focus on our work. Which is the truth right?
I nodded putting my heels on since our taxi was almost outside.
Me: right. Just try to enjoy your night.
