I rolled my eyes kissing my teeth at my brother. He seriously thinks that me and tyree are just going to talk it out then never speak to each other again.
Me: where is he?
Jeremiah: on his way.
Me: have you told him what you want?
Jeremiah: he knows what needs to happen.
Me: this is stupid.
Jeremiah: na, what's stupid is the fact that I have to do this.
Me: all that's going to happen is that he's going to say he doesn't want to talk to me again and then get mad in a week's time when he sees me with Jamal.
Jeremiah: are you with Jamal?
Me: I don't know.
Jeremiah: it's a yes or no?
Me: no.
Jeremiah: so if Jamal went with someone else today you would be okay with that?
I screwed him.
Me: no.
Jeremiah: exactly. Don't lie to me Imarni. I saw the picture.
Me: I know but I don't know if it's the right thing for everyone right now.
Jeremiah: you can't keep playing with people's mind.
Me: I know.
My heart rate increased as I could see Tyree walking in. Thankfully Marcus has already left. Jeremiah stood up since he saw how my face changed.
Jeremiah: one second.
TYREES POV:
I walked into the café only for jay to call me back outside.
Jeremiah: thanks for coming.
Me: it's kool.
Jeremiah: I'm gonna leave you two to it. Don't fuck around you know what needs to be done.
Me: yhyh don't worry.
Jeremiah: I'm serious. I don't want you acting the way you was the other day and I don't want her crying again.
Me: I got this don't worry.
Jeremiah: good cause I need my best friend back.
I hugged him just before he left leaving me to go and speak to Imarni.
Imarni: hi.
Me: what's good?
She raised her eyebrows looking back at me so I taped on the table a few times trying to think of the right thing to say.
Me: why didn't you just tell me you didn't want to move out?
Imarni: because I didn't want you mad at me. I care for you and I didn't want to hurt your feelings.
Me: I'd rather you tell me straight up than me having to figure it out on my own then see pictures of you laid up with somebody else.
Imarni: if I knew Jamal was going to do that you know I would've stopped him.
Me: you're missing the point Imarni. It's not about the picture it's the fact that you were there in the first place.
Imarni: okay fine. I'm sorry I did that without speaking to you properly. But I did it because I knew you was already mad at me and you still didn't want to tell me who you was on the phone to the other day.
Me: kool, I'll tell you, you were right. I was talking to somebody that I met a couple of months ago. I liked her but I kept brushing her aside because I thought me and you still had a chance.
Imarni: so what's going to happen now?
Me: I wish you and him all the best.
I sat biting my jaw trying my hardest to not say I want her back even though it's the truth.
Imarni: what?
Me: you made it clear what you wanted.
Imarni: no it's not that simple.
Me: because you're making it hard. Every time we speak you tell me what you think I want to hear then you go off and do the opposite.
Imarni: I don't want you to just go like this.
Me: don't make this harder than it needs to be.
Imarni: so you're going to go with that girl?
Me: it doesn't matter.
Imarni: it does to me.
Me: I told you I'm celibate and trying to work on myself. I just wanna get my shit together before I get someone else involved. I can't keep chasing after you and getting let down when you go off with somebody else because if you wanted me as much as I did you there wouldn't even be somebody else in the picture. When I was with you I know I fucked up when I was trying to make you jealous with the waitress but I never gave anybody a chance to get in-between us like you have with Jamal.
She slowly nodded biting her lip as tears started to fall from her eyes. Even though I was saying all of this, in the back of my mind I still want us to try again.
Imarni: I gotta go.
Me: wait don't leave. I'm sorry.
Imarni: for what? You're right. I don't want to hurt you anymore.
I tried my hardest not to follow her as she walked out of the café but I just couldn't do it. I caught up with her as she started walking on the street pulling her into my chest as she bursted into tears. If she cares this much why can't she just get rid of Jamal?
