?: Imarni?
I spun around on my heels looking at the lady that was calling me from across the shop. Shit... It's Jamals mum.
Me: hi, are you okay?
Mum: yes thank you, how are you?
Me: I'm good. Are you looking for Jamal?
Mum: yes, I was just doing a little bit of shopping and thought I'd pop in to say hello.
Me: he's not working today.
Mum: oh I thought so, I just wanted to check.
Me: he should be at home though.
Mum: it's okay I only came to say hello, I'll call him later. I'll see you on Friday.
Me: Friday?
Mum: ye, at the meal, aren't you coming?
Me: oh right yeah.
I smiled nervously. What meal is she talking about?
Mum: I'll see you on Friday then.
I waved at her as she walked out of the shop Jamal has some explaining to do.
*
Me: so when was you going to tell me about this meal on Friday?
Demari: what meal?
Me: I'm talking to Jamal.
I screwed my face as he sat biting his lip nervously.
Jamal: how do you know?
Me: your mum came to work to see you.
Jamal: kool. Don't worry about it.
Me: no. I want to know what's going on.
Jamal: Imarni. I said leave it.
Demari: you two just made up don't start fighting again.
Me: tell me the truth?
Jamal: fine. She doesn't know we broke up.
Me: it's been a few months.
Jamal: I know that Imarni. I just haven't told her yet. And now she's invited you to her birthday meal and party on Saturday and I don't want to upset her and tell her that we broke up months ago and I hid it from her.
Me: why would you do that?
Jamal: it doesn't matter. I'll tell her before Friday so you don't need to worry.
I instantly started to feel sorry for him and I know I'm going to regret what I'm about to do.
Me: no wait... I'll come but you have to tell her the truth afterwards.
Jamal: you don't have to do that.
Me: I want to. And I have something to tell you both.
Demari: you're pregnant?
Me: no!
Demari: oh what is it then?
Me: so... Our lease is ending in a couple months.
Demari: yeah, we can just renew it.
Me: no D, I'm going to start looking for new places to move to.
Demari: is that a joke?
Me: no. Me and Vanessa are moving out.
I bit my lip watching Jamal as he walked out of the kitchen into his room leaving me with demari who was burning holes through my skin.
Demari: why?
Me: I just think it's for the best.
Demari: are you just moving with Vanessa?
Me: I don't know, I like having more roommates I just feel like this is not working out for us.
Demari: you can't just say that because of what's happened in the last couple of weeks.
Me: demari you know it's been a lot of drama since we got here.
Demari: kool.
I bit down on my lip harder almost piercing my skin since I was trying my hardest not to cry but it didn't work. Demari came over to me pulling me into a hug.
Demari: I suppose us not living together doesn't mean we can't meet up right?
I nodded holding onto him tighter. Hopefully this if for the best.
*
Since I told Jamal about me moving out a couple of hours ago he hasn't left his room at all.
Me: can you go and talk to him please?
Demari: Imarni I've already told you. There's nothing that I can say. You need to go talk to him.
Me: I can't. I know he's going to be mad at me.
Demari: just go.
I rolled my eyes going to knock on Jamal's door. He didn't answer so I walked in anyway. He looked up at me then instantly started biting his jaw.
Me: hi.
He squinted his eyes at me putting his phone on his dresser so I could have his full attention.
Me: I think we need to talk.
Jamal: is it because of me?
Me: what?
Jamal: are you moving out because of what I did?
Me: no.
Jamal: don't lie to me.
Me: it's not. I just need to move on.
Jamal: so what's the reason?
Me: there's no reason.
Jamal: bullshit.
Me: don't be mad at me Jamal.
Jamal: then tell me the truth. I know I'm the reason you're moving out. I fucked up and even though I admitted it and apologised you still can't forgive me.
Me: it's not just about that. It's a combination of all of the drama.
Jamal: you didn't want to move out before it happened though.
I sighed out shrugging my shoulders since he was really not trying to hear me.
Jamal: I still have feelings for you. You can't just leave like that.
Me: Jamal I just wanted you both to know my plans. I'm not just leaving, I haven't even got another apartment yet.
Jamal: then why are you doing this? Are you getting back with Tyree?
Me: no I'm not.
Jamal: you're breaking my heart right now you know that right?
Me: how can you say that Jamal? You was just fucking Rhiannon in here a couple of weeks ago. You can't act like the victim.
Jamal: neither can you Imarni. I've dealt with your bullshit too. You saw me once with rihannon and decided to cut me off. I've had to watch you many times with Tyree whilst I sat around like a fool waiting for you to come back to me.
Me: exactly this is why I think we need to go our separate ways because this shit can't keep happening and I'm done arguing with you.
Jamal: so you're just going to run away and expect feelings to disappear?
Me: what else can I do?
Jamal: you can stop being stubborn and talk it out with me properly. I don't want you to go and you know if we wanted to we could make it work whether we're together or not.
Me: so you're okay with sitting back and watching me get with Tyree?
Jamal: I know you don't want to be with him. You never did.
