The Price Of Loving Him... (Itachi x reader)

Chapter 39

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That night you laid in your bed but couldn't sleep. You kept thinking of him, what does he want exactly? Was it the last time you'd see him? Will he just let you continue living your life normally? Will you ever be able to act like before after knowing who you are, and after meeting Itachi, the one who killed the Uchiha clan?
After some time tossing and struggling to sleep, you have finally fell into slumber.

Itachi was in a hotel room, walking out of the bathroom after taking a refreshing shower. He wasn't on a mission, he was free at the moment, he decided to go somewhere calm to clear his mind up and have some rest. 

He laid on the bed on his side closing his eyes, thinking of many things at the same time, his brother, the organization, the village, the Uchiha clan and... [name] Uchiha.
[Name], the girl he met by accident in a distant village on his way searching for a cure for his sickness, the girl who appeared to be a lost Uchiha. She had already captured his attention from the first day meeting her, with her smile and pure soul. An innocent Uchiha that doesn't know anything about wars and betrayal, a soul that still has that happiness and love in her heart, a soul that somehow, saw him differently.

The fact that you didn't look at him the way others see him, even after finding out who he is and what he did. The fact that you were able to read what was hidden deep in his eyes, the sorrow and regret that no one else was able to see behind that coldness, the fact that you actually...tried to understand and asked him directly what was his reason to do what he did, as if you couldn't believe he can do it without a strong motive thay pushed him to.

But...he should stay away from you...

You woke up the next day feeling a bit tired from not sleeping comfortably at night. After getting ready and having some breakfast, you headed to the hospital for work as usual, taking care of sick people and those who need you really helped you forget, or at least try to forget Itachi.

Days had passed, but you still think of him, you still wanna see him, and know more about him.
It was another day, after finishing your work at midday you decided to go for a walk out of the village and pick some medicinal herbs. It was just an excuse though...you do realize this very well that you wanted to go and...search for him and meet him again. It wasn't your first time doing this, you have come to the woods several times before, hoping that you'd see him there but he never showed up.
You let Noriko know that you'd be back later then took your basket and bag and youd wagasa and headed out of the village toward the woods near it, you picked up some herbs and sat down under a tree in that same meadow, waiting...

It was so calm, you can only hear the sounds of birds chirping and the gentle wind moving the leaves making some of them fall.
You waited for an hour, two, three, and he didn't come. You remembered his last smile when he poked your forehead, did he meant by that that he will not see you again? Was his way to say goodbye? No! You're just making things up [name]! it has been only some days, he should be busy or something...
You slightly chuckled at yourself, seeing how stupid this is. You waiting for someone you barely know, someone you have no connection with...someone you should keep a distance from, not try to get close to him on purpose.
But the dreams you had these few passing nights didn't give you an option, he was there, making you remember his kind and gentle side that he had shown you before...making you remember what happened by the great tree...

You gave up, you stood up dusting your clothes off and grabbing your things as you started walking back home, a feeling of disappointment overwhelming you as you couldn't see him again. 

You were walking slowly, hoping that he might appear, if only he explains things, if only he gives you some answers, if he opens up a bit to you...
You took one last glance at the meadow, nothing, no one...

You were doing the dishes after dinner, deep in thoughts. Maybe you should get over it, forget everything and get back to your normal life. He doesn't seem to have any kind if interest in you in the way you have in him, he should be busy with his own life, while you are here making things up. You didn't notice when a plate slipped out of your hands, shattering into small pieces on the floor, making you flinch in surprise.

"[Name]?! Are you okay sweetheart?!", you turned around to see lady Noriko coming toward you with a worried look on her face, then she held your face in her palms, kindly removing some bangs out of your face and looking into your sad eyes.
"Y-yes...I'm fine, just that plate slipped out of my hand...I will clean it up quickly", you said with a sigh.
"[Name], you are not acting normal ever since you have gotten back from that mission, the explanations you've given me didn't quite convince me, and now this...what is it sweetheart?! Tell me what had really happened?! What did Itachi do or say to you?", she asked, slowly passing a hand down your hair reassuringly.
Ever since you have been back, the shining and brightness that used to be seen always in your eyes has disappeared...Itachi took them with him.

"Huh? N-nothing, I'm just tired, I had a lot of work today and..", you trailed off, not even able to look directly in her eyes and finish the obvious lie.
"[Name], are you seeing him?", she asked calmly, but seriously, holding your face in her hands, seeing those small drops of tears in your eyes, she knew something was going on, something related to Itachi...
"What? No! Of course not...", you said a bit surprised, was it that obvious?
"[Name], tell me", she said calmly, smiling a little bit, encouraging you to talk as you hesitated.
"...well...I was trying to see him again when I go to get herbs but...he didn't come back ever since that day...", you admitted it that you have been trying to see him.
"[name]...it will be okay...don't over think about it, give yourself a chance to rest", she muttered softly, pulling you closer to her and gently stroking your hair...this was totally unexpected, the Uchiha finding you and who you are, and you...

You have decided to go look for him for a last time, enough torturing yourself for someone who doesn't seem to even care. You didn't take your basket to get herbs this time, just got your bag with some food and your wagasa to shade you from the sunlight.
Hours had passed as you tried to enjoy the green nature around you and the calmness while waiting, you couldn't even eat your lunch, you had no appetite for it. You sighed getting up and dusting your clothes off, you grabbed your things and started walking away, that's it, that was the last try...

"[Name]"

You froze in your spot hearing that familiar voice calling your name, could this be real? Aren't you just imagining this? Turning around quickly, you found him there standing in his familiar black cloak looking at you.
"Itachi...", you whispered, a small smile appeared unwillingly on your face as you felt that strange feeling in your stomach. He came...when you thought there is no hope, he came back again.
You stood there watching him as your sad face expression turned into a happy one, while he started walking to you, then stood up right in front of you, in the same spot you two parted ways that other day.