The Price Of Loving Him... (Itachi x reader)

Chapter 130

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"Please try to drink this [name], you can't stay like this not eating anything and crying nonstop", the lady said as she sat next to you on the floor with a mug of hot tea made of medicinal herbs in her hands for you. She is right, ever since you woke up you have been crying, even when you take a nap, tears slip out of your eyes, and the fact that there is a baby, had worsened things for you.

She helped you sit up in your futon and held the mug in your skinny shaking hands, you're so weak now, even these medicinal herbs won't help you carry the baby in the future when it gets older, and that elixir doesn't seem to have any effect on you, or on Itachi...is that because it wasn't used right after it's been extracted like in Deidara's case? No, it is supposed to work even after thousands of years later, but what happened? Is it because of your Uchiha bloodline? No, the eyedrops that contained it had a great effect on Itachi's eyes, so...why didn't it work?!

"I know this is so hard on you sweetie, no words can explain the pain you're passing through now...but you need to be strong...what happened just happened, but you need to think about the future", Noriko said as she helped you drink some of the hot drink, you didn't say anything in response.

Future? What future now? Itachi left you suddenly, and you're barely alive, and that baby inside of you sucking the remaining life out of you, and will soon kill the both of you, even if you try to get rid of it, you will die, you will die in both cases...
Looking around, everything in this house reminds you of Itachi, as much as you hate to be here now but also...you wanna stay...it has his own scent and memories...

"I will go look for him one last tim-"
"No!!", you tried to say in your weak voice when lady Noriko interrupted you sharply, she can't let you suffer more than this, she promised your parents you'd be happy, she let you be with Itachi because of this, because he was making you happy, but now after this happened, she won't let you throw yourself in the unknown anymore.
"You're not going anywhere, you will only stay home and try to recover, [name]! The world is cruel outside! And you're weak and many people will take advantage of this if they find out about you! You need to stay here!", she said worriedly as you looked at her with your watery eyes.

She is right...there is Sasuke who might come searching for you to kill you after he killed your husband, the Akatsuki might try to do something to you or steal your eyes...even if Madara didn't do it, the others might do, the leaf might take advantage of your weakness to take you and throw in jail or kill you instead since you have been a former Akatsuki member, or even try to get more information from you, it is so messed up, you're no longer as strong as before...and now Itachi left you alone...you're totally vulnerable.

"I wanna go to the bathroom...", you said as you didn't want to talk more about this, the lady is right, even if you find Itachi's body now what will you do with it? You're barely able to stand up now.

"Alright sweetheart, I will help you out", the lady said taking the still half full mug from your hands and putting it aside as she pushed the covers away and slowly and with much care, helped you up, taking you to the bathroom with slow steps.
You closed the door as you got inside, you looked at yourself in the mirror...is that even you? Your face...looks so thin and pale with dark circles around your eyes, your lips looks almost as pale as the rest of your face, your nails crumble with the slightest touch, your once used to be shiny and healthy hair seems now so dry and broke...passing a hand through it, there was some locks stuck in between your fingers, no...it's falling out!
Is that it for you?
You wiped some more tears out with your sleeve as you then exited the bathroom after taking care of your business, the lady carried you back to your place, you laid in your futon again as she covered you, she tried to make you drink the rest of the herbal tea but you refused, as you felt that your stomach will not handle one more drop of it, or of anything else.

A few days had passed, and now you're missing him even more, you're missing him to a point that you try to keep sleeping all the time and dreaming of him, you wanna see him even if in your dreams, while staining your pillow with your unstoppable flowing tears, you cry day and night.

The lady never left you alone, she was doing her best to help you through this, she only waits until you fall asleep and calm down a bit so she can do some of her works.
You barely talk, you hardly ate anything, all you did was crying and thinking of Itachi...
You never thought, you would be broken to this point, never.

"Itachi don't go again, please..."

The lady wiped out some tears as she heard you whispering in your sleep one night after you finally could sleep after drinking a calming herbal tea she made for you, she gently patted your head, careful not to wake you up or make more of your hair fall, as she then leaned in and kissed your temple, trying to wipe some of your tears that were staining your pillow, while whispering some prayers under her breath with her lips.