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Does Everyone Deserves a 2nd Chance?

It's painful to be hurt especially when someone who hurt you is someone whom you love so much. Some says, if you are hurting or in pain, that's true love, kaakibat ng pagmamahal ang masaktan. Kasi kung hindi ka nasaktan, hindi yun tunay na pagmamahal.

I've got a boyfriend, a guy who shown me that I'm perfect with my imperfections, a guy who love me for who I am and I am myself when I am with him, not pretending to be someone else, just me, a guy who's perfect for me. As time passes by, it becomes cold--- in his eyes I'm not sexy anymore, I'm not beautiful anymore, I'm not the girl he wanted anymore.

And I know, and fully aware that time will come, his love will fade, but eventhough I was ready about it, nasaktan pa rin ako. The memories that we had are attacking me, and I was so naive and marupok. It's different without him, and thinking about it, my tears would fall-- unconsciously. 

Months passed without him, I thought I am totally healed, but it didn't, missing him, wanting him, and loving him still. I know a lot of people wouldn't understand this feeling, even the one who's writing this one won't understand this kasi never nagka-boyfriend. Hmm. (Maninood ka?)

One day, the man I was wishing to come back, did come back. That guy told me everything I wanted to hear, biglang nabuhay ang katawang lupa ko. Ang he asked me again, we will try it again, but I said --- no.

Why? Am I being dumb? No, I'm not --- 

Between that months that I'm in pain, I found someone-- whom I can open everything with, I told that someone na payag akong ligawan niya ako, he even know that I still love my ex-- but never did he leave me. He is willing to wait, and he'll help me heal myself.

When my ex-boyfriend come back, isa lang ang nasa isip ko---

Not everyone deserves a second chance, 

because there are somebody who deserved it more.

May pinipiling lugar at sitwasyon ang pagiging marupok. And not at this kind of moment.