Let Me In Your Heart Again | Hardzello♡

Chapter 62

Ben's eyes widen and his mouth drops open. 'Oh, right. I'm so sorry. Thanks for calling Dad. Are you sure you okay? Should I come to you?' He asks his father. 'Yes I know I'm in the hospital, but still.' He mumbles. Then again, his father tells him something that makes his eyes widen. 'Wait, what? But why? I don't get it. Yeah that's a better idea. I'll see you tomorrow.' Ben ends the call with a frown. He stares straight ahead.
Then he feels Joe's hand on his. 'What is wrong baby?' The ginger asks worried.
At the moment Ben wants nothing more than to tell you what's going on, but he decides to wait. He doesn't want to ruin the evening. 'Nothing, don't worry. Just some family drama.' He says with a fake smile. 'I'll tell you tomorrow, promise.' He says when he sees Joe's still worried look. 'Let's just enjoy our dinner. And each other.'
Joe hesitates for a moment, but then nods. 'Okay then. You're right. Let's enjoy this evening together.' He gives Ben a kiss on the cheeks. 

And so not much later, the two are enjoying their freshly made pasta.
Ben keeps telling Joe how well the boy cooked, always loving Joe's homemade pasta.
And every time Ben says this, Joe blushes even more. 
When they both finish their pasta, Ben gets up. 'I will clean up. You already cooked.' He picks up the two plastic plates and the two glasses.
Although Joe actually wants to stop him and do it himself, he nods. He knows how much Ben hates when people act like he can't do anything because he's in the hospital. 'Thank you sweetheart.' 
With a smile, Ben walks towards the mini kitchen. He bins the two plastic plates, and rinses the glasses.
After everything has been cleaned up, the two crawl back under the duvet of the bed.
Ben opens his arms for Joe, the latter gratefully snuggles up to his chest. 
Then the nurse comes in. 'Hi guys, I hope I'm not interrupting?' She asks with a friendly smile.
Ben and Joe shake their heads.
The nurse nods. 'Good. Ben, I have a special liquid here that we're going to run through your blood. You can go home in two days, and we will give you your final checkup. This liquid helps with that. You will be quite nauseous, but we can give you medicine for that.' She explains.
Ben nods to say he understands.
'Does this medicine have any side effects?' Joe asks a bit concerned.
The nurse nods. 'Ben will get a little emotional from the medicine, but that's all.' 
Joe smiles with relief.
When the liquid is in Ben's IV, the nurse leaves the room. 
Joe places his head on Ben's chest, briefly closing eyes. 'Only two more days. Then you can leave the hospital.' He whispers happily. 
With a big smile, Ben pulls the duvet a bit further over him and Joe. 'I can't wait.' With a smile he puts his arm around Joe. He giggles softly when he sees the boy yawn. 'Let's go to sleep baby.' Ben whispers before giving his boyfriend a kiss on his forehead.
The ginger yawns and nods. 'Okay.' He mumbles.
Not much later Joe falls asleep in Ben's arms.
But the blond can't manage to fall asleep himself. Thoughts rush through his head and keep him awake.
The night seems to last forever.
Exhausted, Ben watches the minutes and even the hours tick away on the clock. Then he suddenly feels Joe tense up in his arms. Not much later, two sleepy hazel eyes stare at him.
'Can't you sleep Benny?' Joe whispers softly.
Ben shakes his head. 'My mind is going crazy.' He says softly.
'Do you want to talk about it?' Joe takes Ben's hand and gently rubs Ben's knuckles with his thumb.
Ben shakes his head. 'Let's do that tomorrow. Can we just cuddle for now?' He asks softly.
Joe nods with a small smile.
Ben buries his head in Joe's neck, and Joe entangles their legs.
'I love you.' Ben whispers with a smile. 
Joe smiles. 'I love you more.' He mumbles.

After a while, Ben sees how hard Joe is fighting to stay awake. 'Go back to sleep sweetheart. You're tired.' He whispers before giving the boy a small kiss on his temple.
Joe shakes his head with a soft groan. 'Not while you can't sleep.' He whispers.
'Okay then. Then I'll do my best to fall asleep.' Ben says. 'I don't want to be stuck with a zombie when I can go home.' With a small grin he start tickling Joe, which earns a giggle from the latter. The sound warms Ben's heart. He gives Joe a kiss on the forehead.
Joe yawns and nods. 'Okay then. Let's both go to sleep.' He mumbles.
The two both close their eyes, holding each other close.
And although Ben notices that Joe is slowly falling asleep, he is still wide awake himself. But he does feel calmer, thanks to Joe. The thoughts that previously raced through his mind seem to have paused.
'You're not sleeping yet.'
Ben slightly startles when he hears Joe's voice. 'Neither are you.' He chuckles.
'Okay, you win.' Joe whispers with a sleepy giggle. He puts his arm around Ben, pulling the boy close to his chest.
Ben closes his eyes, nuzzling his face into the fabric of Joe's hoodie.
Then Joe gently starts tracing figures with his finger over Ben's shoulder.
Ben yawns. 'You know, I'm actually pretty tired.' He mumbles.
Joe smiles. 'Good night Benny. Sweet dreams.'
Ben mumbles something back, which sounds like a "I love you", but the blankets make it difficult to understand.
Still, Joe knows exactly what he's saying. Which puts an even bigger smile on his face.
Ben's breathing slows down, and his head gets heavier and heavier.
Joe nuzzling his nose into Ben's hair, inhaling the scent of his shampoo.
It all feels so familiar. This is meant to be.
With the same big smile around his lips, he too falls asleep.

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The next morning Ben is sitting on the bed, struggling to get his shirt off.
At that moment, Joe enters the room with a bag of sandwiches in his hand. 'Oh honey let me help you.' He says as soon as he sees Ben struggle. He walks over to Ben, and wants to pull up his shirt.
'No!' Ben yanks the shirt away from Joe's hands.
The ginger looks at him in surprise.
'S-sorry.' Ben looks the other way.
Joe sits down next to him and puts his hand on Ben's knee. 'It's okay. Just tell me what's wrong? If you want to, of course?' He asks with a reassuring smile.
Ben nods, taking a deep breath. 'I- I just don't want you to see the scars on my chest. I don't want you to be shocked.' He says softly, not looking at Joe.
A small smile appears on Joe's face. 'Oh but Benny, I've already seen your chest. In fact, the first night you came here in the hospital. The nurse came to check you and take care of your wounds. So I don't think I'll be shocked by your chest.' He explains.
Ben's eyes widen. He swallows. 'But don't you think the scars make me ugly?' He asks insecure.
Joe lifts Ben's shirt and starts placing kisses all over his chest. 'They tell a story. Our story. And no matter how painful that story is in some points, there is nothing we can do about it. And never again ask me if anything makes you ugly. You are so beautiful, so sweet, so cute. And I love you.' Joe gives Ben another kiss, this time on the lips. 
Soon Ben melts into the kiss. When they pull away, a big smile appears on Ben's face. 'Where did you learn to give pep talks? And such a romantic one.' He asks with a giggle.
Joe shrugs, laughing. 'I've watched a lot of romance movies in the last month, believe me.'
Ben smiles. Then his phone receives a message. He checks his phone to see who it is.
And again Joe sees Ben's happy smile turn to a frown. 'What is it?' He asks concerned.
Ben takes a deep breath. 'Right, I wanted to tell you that. About that phone call from my father yesterday,' He says.

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Happy Valentine's day everyone!❤

Can I just take this moment to say that I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world? He got me such a sweet present today😍

I hope everyone is doing alright?

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