Jenalyn: Disconnected (#5) [Complete]

Chapter 68: Evelyn

Fri. 2/20/09 • 6:18 P.M. PST

Jena's heels clank on her marble floor as we make our way to her front door so she can meet her new mother in the driveway. Harper's surprise party starts soon, and she's been raving about it for the last week because she's apparently going to introduce Russell to her perfect little family.

I don't care about a single part of this. I'm not even mad that I don't get to go to Harper's stupid surprise party, I'm just mad that Jena's stupid boyfriend didn't show up early to slip me my package like he promised two days ago. I've been messaging him all day, and he's ignored me. I'm growing more and more anxious as the seconds pass.

I need something mellow to even out the rushes his last batch gave me; I think Jena is starting to catch onto my hyperactivity and I can't have her finding out about this. She would kick me out in a heartbeat, leaving a perfect target on my back for Dane...

He hasn't texted me in a few days, but I constantly feel the pressure he's put on my back. Getting high is the only way to relieve some of that pain without risking anybody else's lives! 

I have to do what I have to do...

Jena and I make it to the vestibule leading out of her house before she turns to me, her face hiding an anxious look. I'm surprised how unenthused she's been this past hour considering how excited she'd been all week, but don't comment on it. 

She'd probably just deflect the comment anyway. Jena has always been an easy book to read; She could be very visibly upset and still lie about it right to someone's face. 

"Let me guess," I start to say instead, crossing my arms over my chest and signaling to the door leading out to the vestibule. "This is as far as I can go, right? I'm assuming you don't want your mommy to see the mushroom you have growing in your house." 

Jena rolls her eyes, but can't deny that my words are correct. This is how it goes when Tyler drops the baby off too! 

I'm supposed to be invisible. 

"I'll see you later, Ev," Jena sighs as she readjusts her purse over her shoulder and checks her phone. Without another word she opens the door to the vestibule and once again, leaving me standing alone in her house. 

I pull my phone out the moment I hear the second door to her house shut and text Russell. I need my next fix, preferably while Jena is out at the party so I have the alone time to do it! I know he's supposed to meet her at the mother's place, but he's just going to have to be a little late because a deal is a deal. 

Evelyn: Wtf dude? u 
said ud show up before
the party to take care of 
things. Remember are 
deal! I have no problem
exposing this if u dont
show up before that
party... 

I send the messages, blood running quick with anger through my veins. Why isn't he here yet? Why isn't he responding?! Does he want me to tell Jena what he's been up to her behind her back? 

Because I will! 

No you will not, a voice in the back of my head is quick to remind me. I know it's right despite my frustrations with Russell right now. He'd sell me out the moment I did him, and I haven't quite been innocent in any of this either. Jena would kick me out just as fast as she'd dump him if she found out I've been using. And if she kicks me out? I'm sure Dane will have my head. 

The thought just makes me more upset. This is why I need him to show up! I'm going to lose my mind if all I get to do is sit around and stew in my shit soup of a situation.

Where is he?!