Jenalyn: Disconnected (#5) [Complete]

Chapter 46: Tyler

Wed. 1/07/09 • 9:47 P.M. PST

Lily is a lot easier to put to bed than Madison is. After months dealing with bedtime while Hayden was in the hospital, I've come to realize she never sleeps as well as she does with her mom.

"How do you get Lily down so fast?" I sigh to Sophie as soon as I am able to sucessfully transfer Madi from my arms to her pack and play. "I have to start putting Madi down a whole 4 hours before she'll actually fall asleep! Lily is just out like a light!"

Sophie laughs, pulling herself from the rocking chair sitting beside Lily's crib. The silk robe she wears flutters behind her as she makes her way over to where I crouch beside Madi.

"I've been at it for months, it's an art," she whispers as she makes her way over to me. "Practice makes perfect."

Sophie lays her hand on my back, patting it softly before I stand up with a relieved look on my face. I think Madi will actually stay asleep this time. This is my fourth attempt in the past two hours to get her down.

"I just don't think she likes me!" I laugh, heading out of the room with Sophie. I don't really feel that way about my daughter, but I've definitely seen that Madi is a Mama's girl since Hayden has been home.

We exit Lily's room and I automatically head toward the livingroom. I've been sleeping on the couch since I've been staying here; It's not the most comfortable, but I make it work.

"You know you could sleep in the room, right?" Sophie asks before I make it down the hallway. I turn around, and she stands there with her arms crossed over her chest and a partially emabrrased look covering her face. "I don't bite, you know..."

I've thought about it. Believe me, I've fucking thought about it. I mean, don't get me wrong- I'm holding onto hope for me and Hayden. I want us to spend time apart, realize we need to be together, and find ways to work around the differences between us so we can be together.

That doesn't mean we aren't apart now though, right? I mean am I really expecting her not to mess around during our "break?" She couldn't even manage that while we were together...

"We can be platonic in it.. we don't have to do anything! I just know my sofas are more for show than comfort..." Sophie adds after too long of a silence between us. Without waiting for me to respond, she turns the opposite way and starts heading toward her bedroom. "It's up to you."

Staying at Sophie's while I try to adapt to what happened between Hayden and Gage hasn't been a problem for me this far. I mean, yeah, I know Sophie and I are technically "ex's," but I've never felt the way toward her that I have Hayden. I've been here to help with the baby and to avoid my brother.

It's never been my intention to rebound with her.

Going to bed with her wouldn't be a crime though, would it? I mean... I'm single. Even if something were to happen, there is no reason for me to feel bad about it! I'm a man... I have urges just like Hayden does!

... right?

"I'll be right there," I tell Sophie, the decision sudden in my mind thought latent for a while. I'm single... there is no reason to feel bad about this.

10:01 P.M. PST

Sophie's room is just like I remember it. There are a lot of memories in here, good and bad... all sexual. I'm not really sure if it's working for or against me tonight, but the vibes are definitely changing as Sophie lowers her bedroom lighting down to just the Jo Malone Luxery candles she's always loved so much.

The smell is so familiar; Earl Gray and Cucumber. I've never been a fan, but there is something very comforting about it tonight.

"Would it make you feel better if we slept in opposite directions? Or if I have you lay at the foot of the bed like a dog?" Sophie asks in a joking tone as she climbs onto the bed and pulls her maroon down covers over her bare legs.

I roll my eyes and do the same, sure not to position myself too far from her so she can crack another joke on my behalf. She's always hated how loyal I've been to Hayden, and is no stranger to trying to tempt me in my times of weakness. "I'm good, but thanks for the offer!" I laugh at Sophie as I position another pillow behind me.

We both take a few moments to get comfortable before we find ourselves laying on our backs, both facing the ceiling in silence. I don't know what's on her mind, but mine is aflame with thoughts my body would love to act on.

Needless to say, this past week or so has been a little rough on my Mister, especially after having been so good during Hayden's stay at the hospital. A perk I found in dating someone with somewhat of a sex addiction was that he was usually well taken care of.

I silenetly argue with myself for a few minutes, the odds falling in my Mister's favor more and more with each time I remind myself that Hayden and I aren't even together.

I'm just going to do it...

"Hey Soph..." I whisper after a couple moments, turning my body towards hers and finding her hip with my hand.

I hear her scoff the moment my hand makes contact with the thin piece of fabric stretched across her hips. "Hey Ty," she says out loud, her voice assumptuous already. "What's uh- what's up?"

I can hear a smile in her voice. I'm sure she's just loving the fact that I'm going to give into her. I mean, that was her plan from the jump, right? Why else would she invite me into her room, if not to have sex?

I don't bother responding to her, there's no need. We both know what I'm trying to do, and I'm pretty sure we're both down for it.

I let me hand slowly slide lower down her hip. I can already feel all of my blood rushing to my dick, but still try to take it slow for her sake.

"What do you think you're doing, Robson?" Sophie suddenly laughs, pulling my hand up until it rests on her stomach instead. I see her turn her head to face me in the dim lighting of the candles. Just by the tone of her voice, I can imagine the scowl on her face.

Well, what the hell is this about?

"I thought-" I start to say, only for Sophie to interrupt me with another laugh.

"You thought wrong, Robson!" She exclaims, her voice amused. "I'm not just a quick rebound fuck, you know... I feel like you're starting to develop a pattern here! What's up with that?"

What the fuck?

Now that I'm all worked up and ready to go, she wants to pull this? I let out a deep sigh, the feeling between my legs quickly growing uncomfortable.

"I didn't say you were a quick-" I go to stammer, but Sophie interjects again.

"We can cuddle if you want! I heard some people hire professional cuddles for times like these, so..." she says, snuggling herself further down into the bed before continuing. "We can start there."

I feel like a deflated balloon. I didn't come here again tonight hoping to get laid, but once I thought the opportunity was available to me, I definitely set my mind on it... and another part of me.

I can deal with the mind part. I'm sure some way, some how I can convince myself that it's better this way because my heart is still set on Hayden. I can't really do much to deal with the raging boner I now deal with though! It's not like I could plead my case with Sophie either; The rebound pattern I have with her is as clear as day.

What the Hell.

I roll my eyes, thankful for the dimly lit room. I roll closer to her, wrapping my arm around her small waist before resting my head beside hers on her pillow.

I know she can feel my boner pressing against her thigh. I'm sure it's what she aimed for when she invited me to her bed tonight only to deny me of sex.

I want to feel upset... and I do- for a couple minutes. I'm surprised when I find more comfort than anything though.

Sophie feels... good in my arms. She feels like what I expected to feel with Hayden after she got home from the hospital... a feeling I've waited and longed for the four months prior. I'd just think about long exhausting days taking care of Madi, and blissful cuddling in our bed after we got the baby down.

I wanted that so bad.

And for right now? ... I think I have it.